Was chatting w friends about keeping diaries/journals.
no one seems to really keep them anymore. too busy to write, probably wont read.
but i do like reading other ppl's entries. they scribble their random, jumbled thoughts.
their doubts, questions, random whimsical fantasies.

and it's like a window to their mindsets, to their characters, their inclinations.
like watching machines tinker & work.

i havent written a proper blog entry for a few months.
i find that writing helps me to organise my thoughts & emotions.
so i shall pick up that habit again :)

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the blogskin.
i find it a little too complicated. simplicity & clarity is best.

but i cant bear to change it. it represents what used to be me.
and it's uniquely mine.


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changes to my environment;
now that ive graduated, i no longer have a fixed environment, fixed schedule, fixed spending.
i used to have my own room (shared w yanni ♥), a structured timetable, a daily allowance.

now im room-less (T_________T) w no place to call my own, free to arrange my schedule as i see fit, and support my own spending.
and i find myself not as organised as i would like to be.

my cupboard is in a mess, my camping stuff arent nicely packed, my schedule's free enough for me to catch up w friends but i end up having no time to do things i need to do, and i'm not managing my expenditure!
extreme dislike.

so from now on i shall get myself back on track!

i will do a to-do-list w packing my cupboard&camping stuff at the top of the list, use my organiser and make the best of whatever time i have, and manage my spending!


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changes to my person;
i look back at what i wrote, what i did, what my motivations were.

i used to be more idealistic, more sincere, more wholehearted in whatever i did.
if i said i'ld do something, i definitely would. 'treasure', 'cherish', 'honour' were very important to me.
i stuck steadfastly to my ideals, i tried my hardest in everything, i wanted to give only my best.

now i'm more balanced, more realistic, more passive.
my aim used to be a master at one trade. Now i'll be happy to be the Jack of all trades.
my ideals have not wavered, but i dont try as hard to achieve the perfect outcome.
the effort to get that final 1% could be better used and achieve 10% of another goal.

i used to try to maintain all my relationships, but now i only give my all into relationships i feel are worthwhile.
i become more passive with all others..
in a way i also become happier, because my relationships gain in quality, but drop in quantity.

i used to be a happy-dappy person 24/7, and i liked to stay happy.
ive grown to be more pensive, a deeper thinker, more introspective.
i like to think i've become more stable, mature & anchored as a result.

im happy with the way ive grown, though i miss some of that blind faith & innocence.
ive also come to lose some of my enthusiasm, but i shall try hard to regain that :D

live life to the fullest, do what i can while i can.
LIVE W PASSION & ENTHUSIASM! "It's better to try &fail. than to never know and always wonder."

Labels: a new start. :)

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I havent been here for a superrrrrrrr long time!

time to clear the cobwebs lol.

it's easier to update on daily stuff on facebook, cause its way easier to upload photos there and everyone's connected over there!

there isnt much interaction on blogger. D:
plus the photos are a pain to upload if i've got tons to share, cause ive got to do it 5 at a time -.-

okay!

Its 2011!

time to recap on my 2010..

- 6P became a whole lot more bonded, cause we're more familiar with each other, and we have a proper classroom to call home, and because we're more matured and went on more outings, and also a little bit because ms tan yingling kept asking the guys why they didnt ask the physics girls to go for their mac outings lol.

- i dont think ive ever studied this hard in my entire life thus far. the few months before As and during As were hell.

- found that people around me are all really willing to go the extra mile to help me out.
like my dearest mummy, who kept coming to the hostel w healthy stuff cause i was stressing myself out and her as well.
and my dear hostel mates, esp yanni and iris, who endured my crying and kept encouraging me when i felt despair.
and my long-suffering best friend, fenghan, who took time out of her own revision time to help me out, and lent me a pen for goodluck, that i still have not returned ahhaah. i'll buy you a new one! :D
and fellow village idiot soap, who helped me out on many occasions, did saikang stuff with me and talked about relationship troubles lol XD
even my sister, who made a little card for me that touched me and made me cry,
there's a long list of people who touched me.. i am blessed :)

- prom was fun, even though shopping for a dress was such a hassle

- learnt more about ppl around me. good stuff and bad stuff. i know more now.

here's to an awesome 2011! :D :D

p/s fenghan, i decided not to blog about it lol. tell you why next time :D

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Ah. I just lost my wallet.
How cumbersome and costly.


And the wallet's new too. my mum just spent her painstakingly earned money on it for me.





and a great thank you to poor dear Yanni, who climbed high and low all over the place w me, for wayy more than an hour. I know your feet were hurting really badly..
I'm sorry..but thankyou.


UPDATE:
THERE ARE STILL GOOD SOULS LEFT IN THIS WORLD!
one such soul just found my wallet and used facebook to contact me! :D
YAY!!!!!!
i thank god for the many, many nice people i meet in this world, and for facebook too :D

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it would be good if some people learned to have manners.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FENGHAN!!!!!! today is feng's birthday! :D

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protect. protect.

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there are just some things that cant be shared.

Labels: learn from yanni. be content.

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