my-rantinground.

a new, fresh, organized start.

2011-03-19T18:59:00.003+08:00

Was chatting w friends about keeping diaries/journals.
no one seems to really keep them anymore. too busy to write, probably wont read.
but i do like reading other ppl's entries. they scribble their random, jumbled thoughts.
their doubts, questions, random whimsical fantasies.

and it's like a window to their mindsets, to their characters, their inclinations.
like watching machines tinker & work.

i havent written a proper blog entry for a few months.
i find that writing helps me to organise my thoughts & emotions.
so i shall pick up that habit again :)

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the blogskin.
i find it a little too complicated. simplicity & clarity is best.

but i cant bear to change it. it represents what used to be me.
and it's uniquely mine.

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changes to my environment;
now that ive graduated, i no longer have a fixed environment, fixed schedule, fixed spending.
i used to have my own room (shared w yanni ♥), a structured timetable, a daily allowance.

now im room-less (T_________T) w no place to call my own, free to arrange my schedule as i see fit, and support my own spending.
and i find myself not as organised as i would like to be.

my cupboard is in a mess, my camping stuff arent nicely packed, my schedule's free enough for me to catch up w friends but i end up having no time to do things i need to do, and i'm not managing my expenditure!
extreme dislike.

so from now on i shall get myself back on track!

i will do a to-do-list w packing my cupboard&camping stuff at the top of the list, use my organiser and make the best of whatever time i have, and manage my spending!

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changes to my person;
i look back at what i wrote, what i did, what my motivations were.

i used to be more idealistic, more sincere, more wholehearted in whatever i did.
if i said i'ld do something, i definitely would. 'treasure', 'cherish', 'honour' were very important to me.
i stuck steadfastly to my ideals, i tried my hardest in everything, i wanted to give only my best.

now i'm more balanced, more realistic, more passive.
my aim used to be a master at one trade. Now i'll be happy to be the Jack of all trades.
my ideals have not wavered, but i dont try as hard to achieve the perfect outcome.
the effort to get that final 1% could be better used and achieve 10% of another goal.

i used to try to maintain all my relationships, but now i only give my all into relationships i feel are worthwhile.
i become more passive with all others..
in a way i also become happier, because my relationships gain in quality, but drop in quantity.

i used to be a happy-dappy person 24/7, and i liked to stay happy.
ive grown to be more pensive, a deeper thinker, more introspective.
i like to think i've become more stable, mature & anchored as a result.

im happy with the way ive grown, though i miss some of that blind faith & innocence.
ive also come to lose some of my enthusiasm, but i shall try hard to regain that :D

live life to the fullest, do what i can while i can.
LIVE W PASSION & ENTHUSIASM! "It's better to try &fail. than to never know and always wonder."

its 2011!

2011-01-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

I havent been here for a superrrrrrrr long time!

time to clear the cobwebs lol.

it's easier to update on daily stuff on facebook, cause its way easier to upload photos there and everyone's connected over there!

there isnt much interaction on blogger. D:
plus the photos are a pain to upload if i've got tons to share, cause ive got to do it 5 at a time -.-

okay!

Its 2011!

time to recap on my 2010..

- 6P became a whole lot more bonded, cause we're more familiar with each other, and we have a proper classroom to call home, and because we're more matured and went on more outings, and also a little bit because ms tan yingling kept asking the guys why they didnt ask the physics girls to go for their mac outings lol.

- i dont think ive ever studied this hard in my entire life thus far. the few months before As and during As were hell.

- found that people around me are all really willing to go the extra mile to help me out.
like my dearest mummy, who kept coming to the hostel w healthy stuff cause i was stressing myself out and her as well.
and my dear hostel mates, esp yanni and iris, who endured my crying and kept encouraging me when i felt despair.
and my long-suffering best friend, fenghan, who took time out of her own revision time to help me out, and lent me a pen for goodluck, that i still have not returned ahhaah. i'll buy you a new one! :D
and fellow village idiot soap, who helped me out on many occasions, did saikang stuff with me and talked about relationship troubles lol XD
even my sister, who made a little card for me that touched me and made me cry,
there's a long list of people who touched me.. i am blessed :)

- prom was fun, even though shopping for a dress was such a hassle

- learnt more about ppl around me. good stuff and bad stuff. i know more now.

here's to an awesome 2011! :D :D

p/s fenghan, i decided not to blog about it lol. tell you why next time :D

Ahhh...

2010-09-24T18:31:00.005+08:00

Ah. I just lost my wallet.
How cumbersome and costly.

And the wallet's new too. my mum just spent her painstakingly earned money on it for me.

and a great thank you to poor dear Yanni, who climbed high and low all over the place w me, for wayy more than an hour. I know your feet were hurting really badly..
I'm sorry..but thankyou.

UPDATE:
THERE ARE STILL GOOD SOULS LEFT IN THIS WORLD!
one such soul just found my wallet and used facebook to contact me! :D
YAY!!!!!!
i thank god for the many, many nice people i meet in this world, and for facebook too :D

sheesh.

2010-09-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

it would be good if some people learned to have manners.

ill mannered people really really turn me off.

or drive me up the wall.

the sense of self-entitlement..

maybe other people can accept it.

but i cant, and i refuse to.

now's not the time to be alone;

2010-09-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FENGHAN!!!!!!

today is feng's birthday! :D

the poor girl has her birthday right before prelims D:

i wonder who has her birthday right before As. ouch.

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i now realize why the teachers kept emphasizing on study groups; there's really not enough time.

i need to form a study group soon!

and i'm also really lucky and blessed.

i've heard stories of people stealing each others' notes; turning on friends to study.

they focus on themselves, and nobody else.

but i've experienced the opposite.

i have friends who send me their notes to help me in my studies, who tell me to join them when they're studying, to support me and help me along.

i like the sharing&caring culture.

to learn in a supportive, productive environment is alot better than slogging on your own;

it's also more encouraging to walk into an exam hall knowing you've got friends with you, rather than worrying all alone.

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i'm starting to think i have ADHD. lol.

i'm sooooo easily distracted! cant focus for hours on end, and be productive.

need. to. be. productive.

when trouble comes, close ranks

2010-09-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

protect. protect.

to the best of your ability, protect.

seethe.

2010-08-21T17:08:00.005+08:00

there are just some things that cant be shared.

giving it to two is actually giving it to one.

it's just convenient.

one of the supposed winners becomes the frustrated person who has to act thankful.

grates onmynerves.

selfishness is all abound. should i nitpick and fight, or rise above it all?

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sometimes the selfless-ness of my friends surprise me :D

i truly am blessed to have you guys. :3

sigh

2010-08-15T14:34:00.002+08:00

it feels odd.

A levels are less than 3 months away.
i dont feel prepared or ready at all.

i dont have the confidence, i dont feel well versed, i dont feel ready to face it.

when i sat for my last major exam, the psle, 6 years ago, i felt confident, prepared, even a bit nonchalant about it.
i dont feel any of that now.

so much work seems like nothing much.
doors are open but it feels like it's just an illusion.

im just drifting around

i cant even do the TYS questions.
it worries me. it's not just about doing it either; there's competition.
strong, capable, hungry competition.
i need to be tenacious.

random pictures post!

2010-08-01T09:42:00.005+08:00

these pics have been in my harddrive for a loooong time, its time i blogged about them :D

we had a mini hostelite outing once!

madeleine, jieen, minee, yanni, myself!

then we went to pepper lunch. where we got the 3 different desserts! i like the black one best :DD

goma icecream! goma icecream!! :DD

On the 16th of July, the year6 ventures went to pick up punk for firelighting outside the school. thank god we did that, cause it rained on the 17th. the wood around the campsite were all wet and couldnt catch fire easily. and we took a really big bag of coconut husks from the scouts room too! i wonder where they got so many O_O

aha i think we looked quite odd doing this, quite a few people stared at us picking up bits of wood from the ground. one lady even asked if we were doing CorrectiveWorkOrder -___-

then that night i packed my stuff! :D

i impress myself w my ability to compress stuff!

it looks like i vacuum packed it! tho its probably due to my overwhelming weight when i sat on the ziplock bag, pulverizing the clothes ahaha :D

Now it's on to Handover!

We made little keychains, w great help from my dear roommate yanni! :D

the front.

the back. Ventures! :D

yanni! the poor girl who helped me thru the night.

she slept at 1+ am that day :X

her funniest work! AHAHA RATI!

sorry rita :D

charlotte trying to sort the smarties into their colours.

we gave a red box to ms lu :D

AHAHA! this is someone's VentureFlash!

stapled. eehehe :D

my mum's flying back to sg today! byeeee :D

NEFMQ

2010-08-01T00:17:00.005+08:00

i burned my weekend today!

on nefmq.

we were consistent. we even mugged the notes & readings.

alas, we didnt win anything. D:

but at least we gained some knowledge :D

it kinda depends on luck;

ms tan once said that "putting in effort doesnt guarantee a good result"

we submitted all answers way before the due date. but on the due date, the no. of comments jumped from 17 to about 80+!!

the time of the new responses were like 12:55AM. and its one whole page full! siao!

true,true. others didnt do what we did, but they got it.

lady luck was smiling on them i guess.

OHOH! that reminds me. lady luck was smiling at us today too!

today was a crazy day ahhaha!

yesterday, winnie smsed ying2 and myself, asking us to meet at 9.45 at clementi; the quiz starts at 11, and there's probably registration at 10 or something.

so we arrive at 10.15 at LT 11! (the previous venue for the briefing)

there's apparently some exam going on. so we wait at the table outside.

it was already 10.45. not a single student in uniform in sight. something was veryvery wrong.

i try to call all the people i know who are taking part in nefmq too. no one picks up..

winnie calls palmer to go online and check out the time/date again.

palmer tells her it starts at 10.3o, at UCC! (according to facebook page. according to website, its 11am)

at that moment my heart dropped! cause we were late! and we were farrr away from UCC!

but we try to rush there anyway. at a traffic light, we see a cab! yingying suggests that we take a cab there.

we open the cab door, ask the cabbie if he knows where UCC is, and pile in!

he rushes to UCC, THEN WE REALISED HE DIDNT SWITCH ON HIS FARE METER!

then he told us "i'm not going to charge you girls. i'll drop you all here :D"

SUPER NICE! OMG!

then we go in. hm.. 15 minutes late. there's nobody there, except 2 organisers at the registering table. the lady sees us, and asks if we're here to register. we said yeap!

then she blinked, and said THE TEST IS ABOUT TO END IN ONE MINUTE.

my hearts drops again! OMG?! ONE MINUTE?! END?! WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO TRY T___T

then i explain that we thought it started at 11am! because their website said so!

then she calls someone on her handphone and talkstalkstalks..

AND WE WERE ALLOWED TO TAKE THE TEST WHILE OTHERS WERE HAVING LUNCH! :DDD

yayyyyyyyy! i was so stressed out over missing out on the test i was on the verge of crying. i think i scared winnie w my expression ahaha.

then we take the test, then had 40mins left over to eat :D

during lunch, winnie reveals that she bai-bai-ed to guanyinma yesterday to bao3you4 us for todays quiz!

SO QIAO!

and this morning our journeys there were all quite smooth, not alot of waiting time!

so even though today nearly became a disaster, we've met alot of super nice people!

- nice taxi uncle (10.50am near LT11)

- nice organiser who allowed us to retake.

- the organiser who gave us extra time lol :D

today was a special day. i like nice souls :D

hmm

2010-07-25T13:10:00.019+08:00

i'm somewhere between being content, and discontent. frenzy, but in a stupor.

i forgot to ask for a burger without mayo.

i dont like mayonnaise! its just fat! O_O

ive been back from the survival camp for a week, and gotten back my mid-year results.

my my. emotional whirlpool.

let's see!

this survival camp is by far the most primitive one i've been to!

we really couldnt bathe here, we couldnt even sleep in tents! we slept on groundsheets, with lean-tos covering half our bodies, completely open to the elements!

perfect targets for sandflies and mosquitos.

ok! i shall start chronologically! not much time to type, cause it's a sunday and my homework's undone.

SURVIVAL CAMP!

Saturday (17th July)

- meet at 7am at school porch~ to properly pack our survival kits, bought just the day before, by emily, rita, and charlotte at beach road. they cabbed there in the end cause they were afraid the store would close (they heard it closes at 4!)

- rita was there waiting when i arrived! i was second! then yimin came, then charlotte, and isabel and emily! we were all surprised isabel, the ever-punctual one, was late O_O

turns out that was the day bukit timah had its 3rd flood in two weeks! so her bus never appeared, and she took a detour that cost her some time.

speaking of which, whats with all the floods?

- ms ang came when rita and i were at the foyer. i was trying to sit on the her camp chair before she arrived. but i was caught :X

- ms ang opened the scouts room, so we went in to get the camping stuff!

- john arrived and inspected our stuff.

then the coach arrived, and off we went!

it was the bigbig new-ish kind! didnt feel like we were going off to camp yet!

then we arrived at changi food centre. everyone had ipoh horfun, except emily and yimin! who had chicken rice. isabel ordered teh cino, i followed suit, and rita ordered sugarcane!

i dont know why i remember these minute details O_O

(on sunday, on the way back, everyone who ordered horfun, ordered chicken rice! and emily ordered horfun lol!)

then we were off to UBIN~

via bumboat!

i think ms ang & john got the tickets in advance or something, 'cause we just breezed through the whole process, while tourists just sat and waited, peering at us.

getting onto the bumboat while carrying the jerrycan/blackbag/our bags were tough!

there was this girl, WHO FELL OFF THE JETTY WHILE ATTEMPTING TO GET ONTO THE BOAT! she was stuck between the jetty and the boat, struggling to get into the boat, and the captain of the boat was going to the front to REVERSE the boat, to get it closer to the jetty!

which also means, THE GIRL WAS GONNA GET CRUSHED!!

then some other captain saw the whole thing and started shouting at the captain to get his attention. luckily he got the message and came to pull the girl to safety. scaryscary.

then, we got onto the boat. there was no space for john, so he stood outside. and got splashed with seawater O_O

all of us in the boat!

boat picture 2! that purple bag beside rita belong to ms ang!

normal-looking campers at the ubin jetty..

..who suddenly look like they went into a winter country!

we were wearing jackets cause of all the horror stories told to us by the juniors/ ms ang!

did you see their bites and everything?

super terrible! it looked like chicken pox/ some kinda disease.

so we wore jackets. and invited lots of stares.

the trek to the campsite:

rita and charlotte carrying the light black bag. hehe :D

yimin and emily carrying the water can in a rather funny way.

it really hurt my shoulders when i took over from yimin a while later, so i have no idea how they managed to stand carrying the can like this for so long!

isabel and myself were carrying the icebox!

all of us walkinggggg..

then we reached the campsite! teachers at the beach, the 6 of us in the jungle.

the teacher's tents at the beach..

rita and i starting a fire!

i think this is the best attempt at fire-starting in my whole guiding/scouting life!

isabel and charlotte constructing a lean-to!

small fire coming along nicely..

yimin & emily doing all the water-catching stuff.

you see yimin's white jacket? it's quilt-style! which means it was the hottest among us.

dont know how she withstood the heat O_O

our "home" at night..

the area was totally full of mosquitos. during the day,they flew all around you brazenly!

when we put our bags down, 50-odd mosquitos landed on the bags and tried to suck blood!

crazy mosquitos!

so we put up about.. 5 of the mosquito coils around the campsite to stink the place up and repel the mosquitos.

think we were quite successful, the mosquitos really lessened after that!

the 6 year6 happy campers :D

looks like its winter ahaha.

crackling fire! it was, sadly, dead by 3am.

yimin went to restart it. and it lived! then died again 15 mins later.

ms lu looks like she's one of us ahah!

miss ang on the right! to quote her:

"I must confess I kept counting seven students in the dark and scaring myself for no good reason."

lol! funny!

the teachers eating packed dinners while the 6 of us looked on jealously.

actually, not really.

we were all beyond the point of hunger. wasnt really hungry O_O

then we were given a mission in the middle of the night!

mission:

there's some ship in the distance, and we're marooned!

therefore, we need their attention! so we needa build 3 fires at the beacj! it's some international symbol of distress.

the hint was to not create a fire, but to use our existing fire @ the campsite.

so we used mess tins to transport the ambers from the jungle to the beach, and brought along some punk too! and whatever we have left of 2nd & 3rd degree wood.

but we failed. it didnt last. we didnt have enough things to keep it going.

by the end we were huffing and puffing and we still couldnt do it!

so we consolidated everything into one fire.

still couldnt make it.

it was really depressing and demoralising. it was clear that this was only a simulation, but i somehow just felt this really deep sense of loss. like i'm really be stuck on the island forever.

so a few of us cried. now that i look back on that instant, it feels kinda silly -.-

then all of us went back to campsite, where ms ang and john smoked fish that ms ang caught!

that night was terrible.

the moquitos kept buzzing around our heads.

we covered our faces with towels/clothes to prevent moquito/sandfly bites

this is yimin demonstarting how we were sleeping that night.

must have been pretty scary for the teachers.. they came back in the middle of the night to see 6 corpse-like figures, with clothes covering their faces.

my towel was pretty thin, so i was afraid they'd pierce me through the cloth.

funnily enough they didnt! and i was laughing to myself behind the towel, cause my towel was like some invisibility cloth! the mosquitos can sense where i am, but they cant bite! (for some reason HAHAHA!)

but those sneaky buggers managed to find a hole in my towel. i wrapped it around my head you see, but i didnt the fold it properly, and they found a while near my cheekbone.

so i have 4 bites on my cheekbone now. then i rearranged my scarf. then i created an opening at my chin. and got bitten there too! !@£$%^&*

i slapped the mozzie buzzing at my chin. my towel had a red blood stain the next morning.

so i have red areas on the cheek and chin. when i appeared in school on monday, lots of people asked if i've been punched/tripped/knocked into a wall.

then it was hard to sleep. charlotte had it the hardest, cause she's terrified of mosquitos/ all insects. she kept saying "lets not sleep, lets not sleep, lets not sleep"

but we all tried to sleep anyway lol. so we feel asleep at 1am. then woke at 1.30. then fell asleep at 2am then woke at 2.30am.

somewhere in between, at 2+, there was rain! so we woke up terrified. we didnt wanna be stuck in some serious storm! so we all wore ponchos. very little rain came. so we slept w the ponchos on. we were wearing 3 layers! shirt, jacket, and poncho too! super hot.

then woke at 3, yimin went to stoke the fire, and slept at 3.30. then slept at 4, woke at 4.30.

at which we decided to go to the toilet. and went to hover around the teachers' tents at the beach.

then we went to shake john's tent and pretend its a typhoon! ahaha.

then at 7, we trooped back to the jungle to make breakfast!

breakfast the next morning! making milo & hot chocolate..

that's ms ang poking the fire

yeap we're wearing the same clothes.

didnt get to bathe!

besides, who would dare to take off their clothes in a mosquito-infested place?!

using a machete to chop a coconut!

the rest watching..

& laughing! at...

charlotte vs john cutting coconuts

charlotte chopped chopped chopped for quite a while..

but it remained the same lol!

using brute force.

drinking water we collected!

but we got really little, so we added our water (from the school's water cooler) to it.

and added in water purification tablets! :D

one part of the snare trap!

snare trap in its full glory!

i was excited when making this! YAY A TRAP!

we made a hole just big enough for a wild boar's head to go thru.

sadly, no wild boars came.

then we packed up and left.

and made to go for our final destination! the peak! mt puaka!

yay we're there! me looking sour. heh.

then we went back to the jetty, to the bumboat to take us home!

at the bumboat terminal at changi, john was stopped!

cause we had the parang in the black bag.

which is funny, since they didnt stop us when we were going towards ubin, though it was in our bag then too! O_O

so john was stopped, had to explain explain explain.

miss ang said the guards told him "eh why you come again!"

then we went to changi to have lunch.

IT WAS YIMINS BIRTHDAY!

ms ang and ms lu and john went to buy her a cake!

super nice chocolate fudge cake! can compete w bakerzin!

they lighted the candles near the toilet, and brought it over, then we sang happy birthday to yimin in the hawker centre, then she blew the candles, then we ate the cake! :D

then we boarded the coach! which differs greatly in quality with the coach we boarded to come here! ahhaa.

then we went back.

home.

and i felt really sad when we were going our seperate ways in front of the scout room.

cause i know it's the last time we'll go camping like this.

and probably the last time i'll have this kind of memory

with isabel, rita, yimin, emily, charlotte, john, ms ang, ms lu.

"partings are bittersweet".. sorrow.

well well.

2010-07-11T15:46:00.002+08:00

i'm ticked. again. i always seem to be ticked when i blog.

today someone wanted to borrow something from me. i said okay.
then she sat there and waited and looked at me expectantly.
so i told her where to get the item from.

then she looked pissed. then asked me alot of unnecessary questions with an irritated tone.
like "which side? tsk. blahblahblah"

so yeah. end of incident 1.
i'm the picky type, so i got angry for about.. half an hour? over the incident.

i mean like, excuse me, i'm the one lending stuff out here.
why in the world should i take her attitude?
i dont lose anything if i choose not to lend the item to her. in fact, my item gets more worn/used/etcetc.
so. if i lend it to you, i have to tolerate your attitude and my item gets more worn.
it would be a better choice not to lend it to you, no?

but i lent it to you anyway, albeit with half a mind to retract my permission when you started showing that annoying attitude.

incident 2:
then she asked me, why is the item not working?
me: *shrugs* no idea. how am i supposed to know?
her: *irritated tone again* then can you help me? *rolls eyes*
me: *mildly annoyed at the attitude, but goes to help anyway* eh. cant work. no idea. it's always worked fine for me.
her: *reads manual* eh. you're supposed to plug it into both ports.
me: dont need! either one wire or the other! i only used one wire when i used it. does the manual really state that you need to use both?
her: yeah. isnt this yours? ugh.

it went something like that. it's a lot longer. but being angry is a draining thing. i'm too drained to type everything out.

bottom line is,
you piss me off!
1. if you want to borrow something from me, dont expect me to look high and low for it. get it yourself.
2. if you want help from me, ask for it. dont go "it's not working!" and expect me to come over and behave like a repairman. i'm not renting out my stuff to you. why do i have ensure that my equipment works smoothly and to your expectation?
3. that "ugh" was very unnecessary. it just makes me want to go "fine, since my equipment and i exasperate you so much, kindly return it now."
4. it would be nice if you put my stuff back to where you took it from. do you really expect me to clean up after you?

i dont like people who have this sense of self-entitlement.
i'm not obligated to do anything for you, and since you have such expectations, i most certainly will not.

my bunny says hi.

2010-06-23T16:47:00.009+08:00

Joanne bought the bunnies from malaysia!

1 for joanne, joanne's mum, nut, pam, siewlin, fengye and i! :D

the rest hung theirs from their phones, but since my phone's already got half a banana hanging from it, i just put mine on my table lamp!

ITS FREAKING CUTE! :D

when i feel bored i use it to annoy yanni ahaha.

twin bunnies - mine and pam's!

my bunneh's watching.

still watching.

and still looking!

always looking!

can spot the differences in the following photos? theres 2!

bunny says hi!

it looks cuter in real life than in the photos.

the chair's too low, so i sit at the end of my bed!

where i inflamed my knee -.-

yanni's side of the room

this picture twists your perception of the room, doesnt it?

doesnt look rectangular!

our snack shelf! :D

my newly outfitted chair!

the blanket roll is like, 7cm high after i sit on it.

should go get a cushion soon.

yanni's bed full of homework/ notes..

so she invades my bed! like it's hers!

i'm being bullied.

one morning, the sky was pretty!

by afternoon, the sky turned black!

by early evening, the sky was white. lol

i drink alot of milk! so yanni bought me this:

straw that turns normal milk into chocolate milk!

it's like a straw with filters at either end, and with chocolate cereal in the middle.

when i finished the milk, the cereal in the straw was gone too!

my high tea.

and this is a major reason why my size ballooned!

i got lots of chocolates/sweets/snacks for my birthday!

and i ate them all! and i dont even move about in the hostel;

the only movement i make is either going to the pantry to take food, or going to the dining hall to eat meals -.-

yanni's cereal!

ppl in the hostel should find something fishy about this :D

$3.50 worth of gummies!

polished off by.. uh..

the washing machine!

we realised it works even if the cover wasnt put down.

which explains the mini-waterfall. the obstructing hands belong to yanni.

the plant's pretty odd.

one stem has only one flower! o_O

my birthday present from my sister, which i found in the night.

she placed it on my bed at home since early afternoon, but i didnt know.

so i was telling her "oi! where's my present?" the whole day.

lol. poor abused sister xD

(she doesnt realise that the hongbao she used, was actually the extra hongbaos i took home after decorating the class w it. i took it cause it was super pretty!)

my random colourful pencilcase!

finishing off the post w a nice sunset picture!

RAINBOW! kinda.

jesslyn winata told me last time there was some proper name for it but i cant remember.

I SPRAINED MY KNEE CAP

2010-06-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

I SPRAINED MY KNEE! T_______T

cause in the hostel, the chair is too low for me. (or it's the table that's too high)

i cant do work on the table if i sit on my chair; the height of the table is near my armpit -.-

so i sit at the end of my bed! and i cross my legs since there's no where to place my legs.

or i'll somehow sit closer to the table, then force my knees to bend outwards.

AND NOW MY KNEE IS SPRAINED DUE TO ME FORCING IT TO BEND! T______T

it hurts badly to bend it now T_T

howhowhow? T_____T

i'm scared ive damaged my ligament. jinghui damaged his and went for a SURGERY!

what should i do? any home remedies?

i dont wanna waste $$ to go see a doctor..

it feels like the bone's out of place.. i heard there are tcm physicians who can "pop" your bone back! maybe i'll go try that. but my mum says lousy physicians can cause your knee to get inflamed instead -.-

sigh D:

pain! T_____T

MY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

2010-06-09T22:31:00.013+08:00

WHEEEEE!

this is one of the best birthdays ahaha!

cause so many people celebrated w me! & cause i celebrated it over a WEEK! lol!

5th - w my family!

6th - my aunt & uncle-to-be!

7th - surprise party / class outing!

9th - ventures!

10th - jellies!

uhuhuhu.

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5th June:

my aunt & uncle-to-be buys a swensens icecream cake!

cause i've never eaten one before.

it looked great! but the taste was just like the ordinary icecream from the walls icecream man.

so it's ok! but at least ive eaten it before :DDDDD

and the mini candle holders were star shaped!!

i washed &kept them :D

we played with the dry ice like crazy though! we put it into a plastic container filled w water. the dry ice burnt markings into the plastic container lol T_T

everyone sang for me! XD

though i was a teeny bit upset when my dad went back into his room to watch teevee while i was attempting to cut the cake.

my sister's promised me a uniqlo jacket!

my mum bought me a table lamp! (am using it now in the hostel!)

YAY!

no photos though; it's still at home in the camera!

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6th June:

Was supposed to hitch a ride from my uncle-to-be!

but i ended up being the 3rd party in their date ehehe.

and went along to watch Prince of Persia! nicenicenice :D

and then we sped back to the hostel just in time for curfew!

that reminds me. i still havent watched avatar T_T

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7th June:

AHAHA THIS ONE IS EPIC. blogging about this does not do it justice!

this was a big plan started by winnie and nut! *touched*

timeline:

1st june - winnie and i go for the nus nefmq briefing.

i told her i didnt really feel like going for an outing w her and natasha. she insisted that i appear, and then i went randomly "you've got a surprise for me right!"

then she started denying vehemently. so i suspected something was up.

4th june - some people meet up to practice econs papers. i tagged along. then sophia asked me

"hey, you coming for the 7th june class outing?".

i replied "eh.. i'm going out with nut and winnie! sorry!"

then joanne started to shake her head frantically in a supposedly discrete manner.

sophia looked startled, then hastily said "eh.. oh ya. i'm going too!"

in my head i was like "LOL! the 'classouting' is my outing w winnie and nut!"

6th june - yanni (at first) agreed to go w me to the outing w winnie and natasha. then she

suddenly told me on the 6th, that something cropped up and she couldnt make it.

i tried to convince her to go! but she just kept insisting she couldnt, while giggling.

totally obvious that she was still going! yanni cannot lie lol.

7th june - yanni tells me she's off to the post office at JP. then she leaves the room at 10+am in

BEACH WEAR LOL!

i meet winnie at bedok. on the way, i sms to suggest that we meet at je instead! then

she replied that she's taking the bus from WOODLANDS! suspicious..

i reach. then we take a super long time to look for the right bus, even though winnie

said she was sure which bus to take just a while ago.

(later she tells me it was to distract me from noticing sewei, who was there! lol!)

we reach. THEN CANNOT FIND THE UNDERPASS! so we walk the loooong way and

take the overhead bridge, where i spy a BURGERKING! i demand to enter, but

winnie and the rest says cannot! then i got pissed but followed them anyway, to the

food centre they said they wanted to dine at.

after walking 4o mins, we've reached. THEN THEY SAID THEY DONT WANNA EAT

THERE ANYMORE! and said there's some other food place further down.

i got angry cause i was hungry and wanted to eat. but these 4 jokers KEPT

CHANGING THEIR MINDS! then winnie suddenly wanted to rent bikes!

WAAAAAH I WAS SUPER INCENSED! I WANT FOOD! FOODFOODFOOD!

then suddenly i heard a group of people break out into a birthday song some in the

distance. thought they were quite noisy and irritating. then winnie and nut and pam

and joanne started pulling me TOWARDS them! shocked me totally! i thought they

were trying to get me to gatecrash some random peoples' party. then i realised it was

6p. -.-

aha quite touching. :D after the song was over, everyone ignored me and went back

to their work lol. -.-

the sight:

people huddled under umbrellas, over the bbq pit!

(it was drizzling)

left to right:

chengzong, yanni, zhiyong holding an umbrella but getting thoroughly wet,

minee, edwin, joanne, sewei

the already-cooked food. filled my stomach w this instead of BK :D

the 3 slackers 'taking care of the food'.

aha kidding! yeeshuang was very hardworking! :D

i think she got rained on the most!

then it started raining really, really heavily.

so they decided to stop bbqing and just brought cooked food into the pavilion.

lazy to rotate.

4 umbrellas and 4 guys guarding a tray of food.

most of the girls! sophia's doing something productive.

yingying is hiding under the doraemon umbrella O_o

3 long-legged people washing their sandy legs in the rain.

ballerina-style lol!

then siewhwee came! then we sang a birthday song for her!

then we cut the chocolate cake the class bought :D

then we all ate it!

waiting for the rain to stop..

but later we just decided to go play in the rain! zhiyong bought a kite, so..

the little kid we met in the pavilion. he's running around and playing w the kite.

truth be told, i dont like the little boy very much.

he demanded to play w the kite. not respectful, and not polite.

i'ld be inclined to ignore him, but siewhwee was too kind.

siewhwee and the boy. and his sister.

winnie w the kite.

no idea what the boy is doing.

zhiyong was digging a trench. a "3 gorges dam", he calls it.

the little girl is cute!

that day i learnt that zhiyong is a queer nut. when he was building his dam, everyone went to play w him! then later, he abandoned the dam when everyone came over.

he went to play w the kite that everyone abandoned.

then when everyone abandoned the dam, he came to play w the dam!

O_o. he likes peace i guess.

water flows into the dam!

chengzong's using his slipper as some kind of device to pat the sand more compactly.

pamela, natasha, joanne and yingying :D

why their legs all so long?!?! T_T

my birthday presents!

from left:

cute hoodies from natasha,pamela,joanne,siewlin,fengye,michelle!

and the sticky sweet is from them too!

and the box of sinful chocolates is from yanni and minee!

look what the jar says!

it was printed! :O

i trapped my balloon outside my room. to attract attention. eheheheh XD

at the bottom is my mum's table lamp to me! XDD

and the mini pink bunny sitting there is from joanne! :DD

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9th June:

had cca that day!

went to lakeside for an art activity! :D

ate mos burger with the ventures!

i've re-discovered my love of mos. XD

and then we told faith jiejie that today was my birthday!

then she asked the little kiddies to sing a birthday song for me ahhaah!

so cute, and so nice of her :DD

then we ended off taking pictures.

i got a picture with auntie catherine!

but i havent got any pictures now.. you all will see it in due time!

or on facebook. lol XD

shall update on the 10th after i've gone out w the JELLIES *loves!*

10th June:

Outing w jellies! :D

ahahaha. i also got angry during this outing lol! i get angry very easily nowadays, dont i..

ok! i was late for 15mins~

then we talked about where we wanna go while waiting for the train.

though i already said i wanted to explore 313@somerset, we wanted to dicuss further!

cause yanni said 313 had alot of clothing stores. nothing much else.

then shihui said she wanted to play pool. everyone looked like they wanted to go too.

but i hate pool! i think it's a waste of time and money cause only 2 people can play at only one time. it's boring. and i suck at it too.

i tried my best to hint that i didnt wanna go, but nobody got my pleading lol.

then off we went. to plaza sing to eat pizza hut.

why pizza hut? cause safaha, jean, fenghan and i did some survey, and got $5 vouchers each!

then we had student meals. i thought "chicken royale" was bakedrice. it turned out to be baked pasta D:

but it was pretty nice :D

we had chicken soup! and tuyan was eager to teach us her social etiquette skills!

apparently, soup is to be scooped AWAY from you, not towards!

then we had the pasta and coke!

then we asked for the bill. or rather, sarah "asked for the bill".

and so we waited. and waited. and waited and waited and waited.

BUT THE BILL STILL DIDNT COME!

so we couldnt leave, and there was a looooooong queue outside pizzahut, waiting to get a table.

so i got pissed. why are the people taking their own sweet time? if they're not going to present the bloody bill then i'm just gonna take it that i dont have to pay! and go off without paying.

not my fault what, i asked for it, and waited 1/2 hour for it, and it still didnt wanna come!

so i stood up and made to go for the counter to ask for the bill

(no guts to walk out without paying lol -.-)

then shihui said "ah.. they're busy... wait for a while.."

so i sat back down. waited another 5 minutes.

then i stood up again. THEN A WAITRESS ARRIVED WITH A CAKE! and the speakers blasted the birthday song. -.-

it was a surprise lol! the 6 of them went to order a cake without telling me.

so i getting pissed for nothing (they were baking the cake).

so yeah, nice surprise ahaha. pictures are in facebook!

then since we were at plaza sing, fenghan wanted to go look at a scrapbooking shop. so up we went. i sneaked away to daiso and came back, and nobody noticed! AHAHA XD

then we went to take neoprints. wah i'm looking wierder and wierder in neoprints.

my lower jaw sticks out T_T

after taking, shihui suggested that we go to her house to play ps3!

and once again, everyone wanted to go.

fenghan asked if i wanted to go, i said "no! i wanna go 313!"

then she said "whyyyy? D:"

WAH I WAS TICKED. i already said looooong ago i wanted to go to 313! why are there so many alternative places being thrown up now! and when i stick to the plan to go 313, it felt like i was ruining their happiness by rejecting the new place! what's wrong with me wanting to go to 313, when we all agreed that we'll go there today! angry!

but in the end we went to 313. ahaha.

where i tried to find the uniqlo jacket that winnie wore last dec! but no more T____T

then we went to ion! to buy bubble tea. and explore their nicenice toilets.

then go home!

LET ME SHOW YOU MY PRESENTS!

fenghan's card on my wall!

safaha and jellies' messages on my window!

safaha even pasted double sided tape on the other side!! thoughful :3

oh. and..

MY FACEBOOK PAGE IS FULL OF BIRTHDAY GREETINGS!

surprised me when i logged in. SIAO!

but of course, alot of them is shunbian saw, then shunbian post birthday message aahaha.

still, it was a nice overwhleming experience.

my phone was beeping every few minutes on 9th june.

filled with short messages, or long thoughtful messages :3

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and with this, my birthday celebration has drawn to a close.

it's my most eventful, surprising, and fun birthday in recent history! XDD

i feel touched by all the messages.

i feel inspired too.

i will workhard, and i'll step into my future with a choice, together with the JELLIES, & 6P!

*must enter same uni as safaha&feng ahahahaha XD*

mad ramblings

2010-06-03T13:30:00.003+08:00

BAAAAAAAH!

it's stuffy in the hostel today.

and i've been bloody lazy and slacking the whole time too, since the break started.

aish.

many things to do, i've done nothing! siannnn.

then i went to dig my own grave with the quiz. readings readings.

stupor-ish atmosphere. mood and feelings too. i cant afford it, but it's just there.

what if someday i'm cleaning tables, then i'll look back and say "ah i should have studied when i had the last chance in jc2"

growing fat. stupid. and extremely lazy

and im dropping a hell lot of hair! T__________T

washing woes

2010-05-18T19:57:00.001+08:00

you know you're used to staying in the rv hostel..

when your heart skips a beat and you get all excited..

because the washing machine is available for use.

MY NEW ADDRESS

2010-05-15T18:39:00.006+08:00

HELLO!

i've had a change of address.

i now primarily reside at:
6 Boon Lay Avenue. Singapore 649961

familiar? it's the school address! AHAHA XD

I've moved into the school hostel!! overall it's pretty cool :D
you wont believe the horror stories i heard about the hostel. i was quite hesitant to move in even after i submitted my application form!

but it wasnt as terrible, though the dust wasnt very pleasant.
im not gonna give compliments even if it was nice, cause i sorta believe that everything i say will turn out the other way once i voice my view =.=

soo anyway! it's fun to sit there with yanni, with her on the left and myself on the right!
then we either talk/ do work/ hang up laundry to dry and what not.

it's a nice experience to do everything for yourself, though thankfully we dont have to care about the meals.
wake up at whatever time you want, sleep whenever you want, study whenever you want, eat wherever you want, behave in anyway you like!

the only pain is the sloooooooooow internet connection.
though it could be a good thing.

it's a pain in the butt when it comes to washing clothes too.
the laundromat has a reputation for being slow and careless, making it highly unreliable and therefore it is not advisable to try it.
so we use the 3 washing machines and 5 dryers provided in the laundry room on the 2nd floor.
but with 95 people in Hall2, you can imagine the huge demand and little supply!
so yeah, it's torturous trying to find a timing when the washing machine is empty.
the 5 dryers are just enough, usually you'll be able to use it within 2 tries of going down to the laundry room to see if it's available.
the dryer doesnt dry my socks very well, though. so we always needa hang it out for a while to dry it completely (pictures below! :D)

the lift at our storey! see the cute whiteboard? nice touch by the hostel office :D
it says "Hello! we've got newcomers this week."
followed by pictures that are supposed to represent yanni and myself, i think.

corridor outside our room!
shoeracks being placed outside the room means the room's occupied!

my side of the room!
it looks different now, with chargers and lamps and boxes and toys.
but i forgot to take a new picture!

our sink! the one on the right belongs to lydia&yvonne

guess what the white things at the window are!

our socks lol! i thought it looked pretty cute.
yanni's idea!

this is yanni's breakfast LOL!
see the toast, damn cute!

yanni's super cute! her actions keep making me crack up lol.
but the toast was pretty interesting.
i asked "why dont you just overlap it? butter ontop of kaya!"
her answer: "i dont want to contaminate the butter w kaya!"

thoughtful. and there i was, dirtying the utensils and laughing at her thoughtful toast.

and the food.
i think it's okay.. it could be better, but it meets my expectations!
except the servings.
when the uncles serve the food, they give filling portions!
when the lady serves the food, ANTS ALSO CANNOT BE FULL AH.

the uncles give 1 bowl of rice. the lady gives 1/3!!! how to be full with one-third!!
then when i say "i want alot please!", she gives me a blank look, then another 1/4.
SO EVIL! i was polite! so why is she being so nasty!
she's like that with all the girls, but she gives one bowl to the guys!!
sexist! next time i shall draw mustache before going for dinner. maybe she'll give me one bowl.

the uncles are nice, though! that time i was looking at the egg for a long time, wondering if i should take it! then the uncle smiled at me and said "bu yao hai-xiu(dont be shy)! xiang chi jiu na! (just take it if you want it!) then after giving me one egg, he even ask whether i wanted another one lol!
in the mornings too! if i ask for 2 pieces of the bread, he'll just smile and give!
twice in the mornings i asked the lady for 2 pieces of bread (one for yanni), then she insisted that i can only take 1. then i explain i was helping yanni get one (yanni went somewhere else to get halal food), but she still refused to give another! until i kept pointing and pointing and attracted alot of attention, did she give me another piece!
alot of PRCs go for second servings, so why cant i take abit more during my first serving!
not a nice lady. she's a miser!

yujun says that she'll give more if i call her "xiaojie".
havent tried that yet..

since i'm staying at the school now, i've set goals! i shall try every single stall in the canteen before the end of the year! :DD

okay i've got a lot of stuff undone.
gotta go!

p/s
donghae's totally fever-worthy in bonamana(miinah!)!
he dances more smoothly than eunhyuk..
*re-watches miinah again and again and again and again and again...*

penny pinchers.

2010-05-09T18:26:00.003+08:00

i like to splurge money to make others happy;

i commonly splurge less on myself than on others.

but i hate the feeling i get,

when i splurge on a penny pincher, make her happy,

then in return have the penny pincher try to get as much money out of me as possible.

i spend on you cause i wanna buy for you things that make you happy, not because i expect returns.

but when you're so insistent on making others pay as much as they can,

i regret being generous with you in the first place.

i treat people the way they treat me.

when they're nice, i try to be nice to them too.

when you behave like a miser, i'll repay the favour.

2010-05-07T21:06:00.001+08:00

lotsa things to do.

A levels is half a year. in a few months.

oh. my

HAIRLOSS! T_T

2010-05-05T20:00:00.006+08:00

this is my 3rd post, i think!

I'M BALDING AGAIN!!!!!!!!

T________________________________T

i've started dropping alot of hair from sec 3 onwards, cause i started sleeping later and later and later.

my old house was carpeted, so you couldnt really see fallen hair, and i didnt pay much attention to my hair.

only in sec4 did i realise that my ponytail's been reduced to 1/3 of its original amount! (not the length! its the amt of hair!)

so yeah. my aunt brought me to some TCM physician. she recommended that i cut my hair short. (or shave bald. obviously i chose to cut it short)

which i did.

it helped, for a short while.

BUT NOW MY HAIR'S BALDING AGAIN!

I EVEN GOT BALD SPOTS OMG @!£$%^&*(*&^%

the hair at the drain cover when i'm done washing my hair has suddenly increased exponentially!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

see!

and apparently, there's no cure!!

so i need to

- sleep early

- eat less oily stuff!

- eat vitamins + CALCIUM TABLETS!

- destress.

but i feel so stressed! and i feel like sleeping time is wasted time!

aish my hair T_T

losing hair and balding is painful D:

i feel despair and wanna cry whenever i see i'm balding! i.i

at this rate, i really have to shave my hair off T_T

and buy a wig while waiting for it to grow.

balding as a teenager! scaryscaryscary

all you people who have been sleeping late! hurry and go sleep early before you go bald! T_T

?

2010-04-29T18:54:00.003+08:00

feels like i'm been pissing everybody off recently! D:

pissed off yingying today because i made her wait super long for me, in the end we didnt even go back together!! sorry yingying!! D:

then i pissed ms tan off! i made her ticked last friday, because i only did my tutorial till qn 4 :X

then today i took my own sweet time to walk back to class, disappointed her again D:

then i've been pissing mr lim off for quite some time, cause i always never do my tutorials on time! i find it hard to catch up w the pace :X

last friday i also made mr prince angry cause i felt crazy that day and wanted to lock the door and do something stupid for fun -.- he got ticked and told me never to lock the door

i think ms seetoh will be pissed with me when she marks my singlish AQ; very badly done.

so far, the only teacher i havent ticked off is mr tan.

but as winnie(i think) kindly enlightened me, my lecture test will tick him off cause it was so badly done.

omggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

i dont like making people angry or disappointed!

AND IVE BEEN MAKING EVERYONE ANGRY AND DISAPPOINTED.

T_T T_T T_T

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i have so much to do but i'm doing nothing!

sometimes i wish i was a machine, able to get things done methodically.

i've been doing nothing! ahhhhhhhhh

i'm severely lacking in diligence, and i'm not hardworking enough.

i'm not performing at all. 13% maybe?

smack myself!

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2010-04-26T20:13:00.001+08:00

你并没有改。

失望。

dont go overboard.

2010-04-24T17:16:00.005+08:00

i must keep in mind that whatever i do shouldnt shortchange what i'm trying to serve.

recently my behavior's been like that of chee soon juan!

idiotic, selfish, and not constructive.

keep the broader picture in mind!!

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played badminton today with the ventures!

and i've realised the power of rackets.

they can really make a difference! i could hit super farr with isabel's racket!

but i cant hit far at all using my own/ the school's racket.

wah! and i used to think rackets are all the same, differentiated w marketing.

everyone hits the shuttlecocks in a funny way lol!

i like to anyhow flail my arms. looks like i'm dancing in the pics -.-

isabel's the straightest lol!

no matter how she hits the shuttlecock, i ALWAYS capture her in a straight position!

so boring! eheheh XD

i wasnt posing. i was trying to do the backhand.

i have broadway genes! heh xD

ah when we stepped in we missed the presence of the seniors D:
can imagine sherman sitting at the corner studying bio notes.
and binxing and samson smashing the shuttlecock around.
and stanley and weichang playing in sec4 attire.
and samson criticizing charlotte's every move.
weirong standing down there not really doing anything.
and ivan and edwin coming late cause they went running.

miss the old times..

short post

2010-04-07T18:19:00.002+08:00

rv's reputation is going downhill D:

it seems the only people who still think we're good, is the people who are out of touch with rv's current generation of students.

seriously. top schools dont think we're good. neighbourhood schools dont think we're good either. they think we're average students who behave arrogantly. and they're right.

i have seen soo many examples of rv students being totally disgraceful/idiotic/whiny/arrogant/bitchy.

example1:

the "SMS" board set up by the student council. i like the idea. it lets us voice our thoughts and views. lets us be heard. unfortunately, idiotic and whiny views are being expressed too. like this kid who was in a UG. he/she demanded that UGs be allocated air-conditioned rooms during cca days. because "it's too hot to stand under the sun", yadayada, and he/she even has the audacity to add "and dont tell me the school hasnt got enough aircon rooms. i know there are a few available." what the heck? this is ridiculous. it's a UG for goodness sake. UGs are meant to make you disciplined, to train your endurance, to train your teamwork with your UG mates. standing under the sun and part and parcel of the cca. no one likes to be stand under the sun, but everyone still does it. it trains your endurance, your resilience. and the feeling of unity with your mates grow when everyone's in it together. worse still, you even dare to adopt that arrogant attitude by saying 'and dont tell me..." Wah. who are you to use that tone? do you think you own the school or something? We can tell you what we damn well please. And even if there are spare air-conditioned rooms in the school, what makes you think you're entitled to use them?

on the brighter side, it makes me heartened to see sensible comments being scrawled on the paper. comments like "Alert: Spoilt Kid Whining" and "you 草莓!" and "your cca leaders decide where you will train, the school having spare rooms make no difference".

and they're mostly funny to boot :D

example2:

a little group of 8 boys walk to JP from school. 9 people from my class walk behind them. soap sees one of them drop a bottle of lotion. being the kind soul that she is, she picks up the bottle and jogs forward to hand one of the boys the bottle. then as we continue walking behind them, we watch them play with the bottle and throw it onto the ground, then kick it onto the grass.

which meant that the first time they 'dropped' the bottle, they had meant to discard it. in other words, blatant littering. after soap gave them the bottle, they just littered again. and the rubbish bin was just round the corner too.

so i yell "oi!" at them. and stop walking. my class stops walking too. they turn around, and i ask them to pick up the bottle. they stare at the 9 people staring back at them. then one of them walks over to the bottle, throws his bag on the ground, and stares at his other 7 friends.

then the group walks over, pick up the bottle, and throw it away.

later, while infront of them at the traffic junction, i hear them say "wah. we cannot let ourselves be bullied by the senior like that (they were wearing the white shorts). girl somemore". and "how come one yell, then all stop ah?". how come they dont even feel the tiniest morsel of shame for being caught dirtying the place? how come they dont have the smallest trace of being morally-upright? and throwing litter into the litter bin wasnt even a very difficult thing.

andand! the class decides to eat at kfc. guess who we spotted? the same group of idiots. and guess what? they went to change into full-u, and one of them was wearing the GREEN RINGS.

tsk. tsk. such idiots ruin the school reputation.

example3:

rvians are ill-mannered. some dont even have common sense.

if someone talks you listen. if you talk, others listen.

but that's not the case. alot of us like to talk while other people are talking. it's irritating and its extremely bad manners. i dont like people talking to me during lectures when the lecturer is talking. and i dont like people who talktalktalk nonstop with each other when some one is speaking/presenting too.

an excellent example would be today. the PSC people came and gave a informative presentation on PSC scholarships. 3/4 of the time, the hall was buzzing with the sound of people talking. it was so rude. rvians were brilliantly displaying how ill-mannered we are. i sat there and wondered if ms J was dying of embarrassment. if i was the PSC presenter, i would have just stopped talking altogether. why bother talking to an audience that isnt listening?

even if the subject matter wasnt relevant to them, it would have been basic manners to listen. i havent got a chance at the psc scholarship. but i listened attentively anyway. because they put in the effort to come down to give a talk. the least i could do was listen.

but nope, rvians just talk among themselves cause they arent interested, its the presenters own loss to come all the way down here to give a talk.

aish. disgraceful behavior.

of course, rv students do have positive traits too.

but im not gonna elaborate on that cause i get the impression that most rv students have egos that are too big.

it's good to acknowledge your own good points; but please spend energy improving on your bad points too.

on the whole, the average rv student's behaviour has become worse.

5 years ago when i just entered rv, students were polite, respectful, had common sense and were considerate. i thought i had the nicest seniors and nicest peers in the whole world. especially compared to the seniors/peers that my friends in other schools had.

but 5 years on, the character&attitude of the average rv student is no better than that of other schools. worse, even.

gone are the days when students offered their seats to the teachers when there werent enough.

gone are the days when students were so trustworthy, wallets could be left everywhere for several days and would remain untouched, or turned in, untouched, to the general office.

gone are the days when students bowed their heads respectfully at teachers.

gone are the days when students had the sense to dress decently and not try to look like tramps.

seriously. have you seen the girls' skirts? short skirts are ok, non-decent skirts are not ok.

i dont want to see your fat thighs okay, please dont pollute my eyes.

you can look attractive without showing so much skin you know.

showing too much just makes you look cheap.

NYAA CAMP!

2010-03-19T12:23:00.042+08:00

ah i feel a little guilty to be blogging here.

i wanna blog before i forget, but at the same time, i shouldnt have the time to blog!

i have heaps of work undone that i needa do, stat.

aish T_T

i shall treat this as writing a report for NYAA then, in case i gotta do it next time :D

(shall get this done by 2pm!)

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We started on the 13th! We were supposed to meet at bukit timah nature reserve at 9am sharp! for a guided tour. but emily and i reached late cause i slept too much and other personal reasons. they took the green trail, then continued on with the red trail till we reached the summit hut!

(ps. sorry for all the uneditted photos! i cant quite figure out how to use this computer properly yet.)

map w the trails:

so the 5 of them (ms ang, rita, isabel, yimin, charlotte) took quite a lot of photos!

some of them:

rita, yimin, charlotte, isabel!

ms ang!

pretty scenery, no? :D

since emily and i were late, we just walked straight along the red route, and didnt detour into the green route. we met up with them just before the stairs leading to the summit hut!

us 7 on the steps :D

ms ang, yimin, me, emily, rita, charlotte, isabel

at the top! :D

we were all kinda suppressing laughter cause we were doing the flipped-over "V"!

which also means "piss off" instead of your usual smiley "V" that people like to use.

we saw this pretty log on our way down! heart shaped :D
though hollow D:

then we went to the mangrove reserve in pasir ris park!

we took the bus there~

emily, yimin and isabel!

walking walking walking to the mangrove!

charlotte, yimin, emily walking!

rita, beryl and charlotte!

you see those green things emily and i were hugging?

those were our portable bedrooms. aka tents.

they seem pretty light at first, but as you carry them, they get heavier and heavier..

and all of us were wearing our white&green ventures tees! pretty, no? :D

looking for the mangrove on the map!

the entrance was pretty non-descript, so we actually missed the entrance twice lol!

we saw a maze garden on our way in! and decided to go through it aha.

you see the legend at the side? they;re supposed to be animals to look out for, eg: monitor lizard.

in the end the monitor lizard was some styrofoam cut-out lol!!

here's me carrying the tent and bag infront. cause my shoulders are aching!

we got tired of getting lost! so we took a photo as a rest activity ehe :D

poor rita isnt in this photo. D: she's got very little photos cause she brought a camera, and hence had to keep taking photos for other people! aww D:

FINALLY! THE ELUSIVE MANGROVE!

& rita's finally in a photo that isnt a group shot!
andand my legs look nicest in this photo! they actually look proportionate :D
and you see charlotte's shirt? that's the back of our shirt. a nice eagle :D

the holes in the ground are the homes of the mudlobsters!

we saw a few. and crabs too! they were titchy! really small, kinda cute :D

NAH! one more photo of rita :D

then it rained! so they shared ponchos! look kinda funny from the back ehe

rita and isabel sharing poncho!
yimin and emily sharing a poncho too!

somehow, i dont know why, photos featuring this 2 always end up looking funny. O_O

the 3 of us slacking while yimin and charlotte set up the tent!

(rita's taking the photo, but she isnt considered slacking per se cause she's doing work :D)

TADA! shelter for the night :D

we tied the entrances together cause the poles to keep the entrace open went missing lol.

yimin and emily! the lovebirds lol.

isabel, rita, charlotte and beryl!

ms ang reading a book! very teacher-ly :D

taking the mrt to marymount the next morning! we were going to macritchie reservoir!

walking to the entrance..

the whole place was rather pretty and modern! and that day there was the canoring championships going on! so it was pretty much bustling w life :D

starting on the 10.7km trail!

(actually its more than that, it's at least 500m to the starting from the sheltered area w the lockers)
trekking! charlotte holding on to the first aid kit borrowed form the first air club!

taking a rest stop! i was stealing ms ang's cookies.

yay we've reached the HSBE treetop walk!

a pretty long trek there, i can tell you!

ooh its high!

posing again! :D

looooong drop down! you're looking at the tops of the trees.

total cartoon-like scenery! can you imagine vultures circling around those leafless branches?

the plant has branches that grow in a hexagon-like shape!

and the leaves are really orderly. they look like combs!

see that fungus? it's like ears.

charlotte says they're called jew's ears. they were taught in primary 3 i think!

half way through the trek, it started pouring!

since we left our bags in the lockers, we had no unbrella or anything!!

plus we were carrying our tents (they couldnt fit into the locker), so the tents became wet too D:

yimin and emily being very very wet.

the 5 of us being very wet lol.

poor, downtrodden us, posing in the rain~

when we were trekking back out towards civilisation, we saw hoards of people standing under the shelters!

remember i said just now that the canoeing championships were being held that day? so yeah, all of them were squeezed under the shelters, standing. it was a pretty funny sight, with 60people squeezing under one small shelter, and 7 girls just walking past them lol.

of course it must have been a funny sight for them as well, to see 6 girls walk past like that, totally drenched lol.

we tried to take a picture in the locker room after we got back!

all of us were wet except ms ang, cause she brought her bag along and had an umbrella!

i just noticed a tan line on her left shoulder!

showering in the rinsing area lol! and washing socks and shoes..

rita the shampoo model! she's pretty without her specs :D

yimin attempting to model the dove shampoo lol!

we also washed our socks and shoes, but they took soooo long to dry!

then we took a bus from there to east coast, where we spent the night..

clothesline! to dry our wet socks and towels..

.. which was near our tents :D

funny thing was, while we were there, we spotted our junior! and he was gonna camp there overnight too, w his friends. and the tent.. was actually a scouts' 8 man tent. so we went "UHOH! YOU TOOK THE SCOUTS TENT! HEHEHEEH"

then he said he had been given prior permission by john! so we just 'okay'ed and left for dinner.

i think we made him scared though hehe.

but still, how come john has the authority to loan out tents? O_O

there were loads of big red ants on the tree that we tied our clothesline to. so we hung the mosquito coil there (in the gold container) to create smoke and heat to scare them away :D

beautiful sunrise the next morning!

sleepy rita getting out of her tent..

still undried shoes! T_T

isabel moving belongings outta the tent, and onto some blue thingy.

isabel and charlotte folding tents! :D

rita and isabel folding the other tent!

the 5 of them packing up!

ms ang was looking at the sea. i was taking photos :D

east coast is pretty bustling on a monday morning!

you see those people doing taiji?

and there was a big group of them, all wearing the same shirt!

rather cute :D

ms ang really really likes the outdoors. she could even identify birds, and state whether they were endangered or not. this little bird here was spotted by her. she said it's uncommon, a relative of the pigeon. its walking style is the same lol!

we also saw an oriole at the southern ridges later on.. it was really pretty, and yellow too.

it's always ms ang whose the one spotting the birds! i wonder where she got her keen eye for observation, and how she became so knowledgeable about birds O_O

we took the mrt to harbourfront! pretty nostalgic, i lived there for all my life! until.. 1 year and 3 months ago! and i used to climb part of mount faber every morning on my way to school. my mum thought a morning walk would be good for me.

it was terrible i tell you. i would stuff down my breakfast in 15 mins, then walkwalkwalkwalk to school! imagine a 8-year-old climbing the hill at 7am in the morning w a full stomach.

i remember stomach aches. and i saw pythons. and a flat python that was run over by a truck before too!

isabel looking happy at the map. beryl looking like she's in pain.

rita kindly informed me that i looked like i was constipated. i think i looked like liang popo.

speaking of constipation, i constipated for 2 days! as did everyone else except emily and ms ang.

but i drank some funny banana+pineapple+milk juice in the morning at seah im (harbourfront), and i pooed that afternoon. ehehe. :D

isabel and yimin climbing! w SLIPPERS!

because all our shoes were still really wet. and no one wanted to wear their shoes.

except me. cause my slippers made my feet hurt. i grew blisters T_T

ms ang and i! we're both wearing shoes. i'm wearing wet shoes, ms ang's wearing dry shoes cause she went home to change them!

see that funny pink rolled up thing in the centre? looks like wires doesnt it? it's actually a creeper.

i hate those things. they steal nutrients from other plants and then grow and suffocate their host plant.

they look so blah. and their creepers are strong. disgusting plant. hate 'em.

the 4 of us! rita was taking photos.

btw, charlotte and emily left for their bio lecture in the morning!

poor things D:

they left early in the morning, carrying the tents so that we wouldnt have to carry the tents all over the southern ridges to west coast park. and skipped breakfast too D:

isabel took this shot. i was supposed to form a heartshape!

we were on the henderson waves. very pretty!

i always thought the white bridge near rv's malan campus was henderson waves! it's actually called alexandra -something-.

we were at the southern ridges! (which connects mt faber to hortpark)

we've reached hortpark! i look sad cause yimin was stealing the limelight. :D

hort park!

map of hortpark!

A CHAMELEON! its tail is green like the leaves. the head is red like the stems!

first time we spotted something by ourselves (not by ms ang) :D

loooong road ahead! we've left hort park, now we're in kent ridge park!

yimin. she looks so serene and happy in every photo lol!

rita feels terrorised by me. or more likely, by the camera.

orange ixora-copycats!

looks like snakes! or sausages. or shit. whichever you prefer :D

it's actually the dried "fruit" of some trees after all the seeds exploded away..

3 of them posing :D

there was this nice lake in the middle of kentridge park! there's supposed to be monitor lizards here, but we stayed for a while and didnt see any, so we left..

more posing..

this plant looks like the rattle of a rattlesnake!

uh oh! we were supposed to go from mt faber to southern ridges, to hort park, to kent ridge, to clementi woods, to west coast park!

but it was gonna rain, so we took bus from the end of kent ridge to west coast park!

but we got lost. and it looked like it was gonna rain..

we alighted 3 stops earlier! cause the bus directory was WRONG!

@£$%^ 3 bus stops in the rain!

me wearing the poncho! the bulge isnt cause i'm pregnant, but cause i had my bag and 1.5l bottle below!

sitting on a dry poncho and resting!

we were waiting for emily and charlotte (and the tents) to arrive :D

clothesline again!

6 of us :D

and our tents at west coast park :D

west coast park is the most boring place on earth to camp!

there were others at pasir ris, at east coast, but only.. 3 tents? (not including us) at west coast park. and there isnt anything to do there either! no food galore like pasir ris, nothing but mac. BORINGGGG.

trying to form "LOVE" with 2 ppl jumping!

rita! why you never jump!

night view..

playing bridge! was eating ferrero rochere brought by ms ang!

i ate most of it. ehehe.

I MUST BOAST ABOUT MY BRIDGE. I HAD 8 WINS in 9 GAMES! OHOHOHOHO!

we left the ferrero rochere on the poncho overnight.

the next morning, it was gone!

i bet those teenagers loitering around stole it T_T

i feel bad cause ms ang brought it for us, then we just carelessly leave it around to be stolen T_T

leaving west coast park in the morning to go to the botanic gardens! :DD

we're there! :D

closer! i realised my face looks the roundest out of all of us D:

the map of botanic gardens! :D

at the orchid park. we got free entry! free entry for students during the hols!

lucky us! :DD

swan lake! it had 4 swans inside..

it got me thinking.. i would not appreciate being trapped in a little lake with only 3 other family members.. poor swans T_T

the person in orange is rita, btw :D

the swan lake had lotsa terrapins too! there's 2 here!

i wonder if the park set them to wander here, or if irresponsible owners left their terrapins here..

guess the name of this flower!

it's called bae yong jun lol.

that korean ajusshi. there's a section of the botanic gardens called "celebrity garden", and losta plants had star's names, like Stefanie Sun, etc

look at the flower's base!!

the little droplets of water are so pretty! :D

at the cool house! it's like, misty all over, to replicate the environment at the himalayas!

very cold. like air con! :DD

isabel, rita, charlotte!

rita, yimin, emily, beryl!

all 6 of us:D

there's a mini waterfall behind me, but i blocked it -.-

pretty canopy! can come here to take wedding shots :D

rita, charlotte, isabel!

yimin, beryl, emily!

doesnt this flower look a bit.. off?

that's cause it's totally FLAT! ahha

and it's supposed to be like that! naturally! without a truck running over it!

pretty amazing :D

at bukit batok nature reserve!

it's called the pond plaza/ or ex granite quarry.

pretty amazing sight in singapore :DD

where we saw a squirrel up close. it just let us go pretty near, before it scampered up the nearest tree :D it's tail looks like that kinda brush that's used to clean bottles :D

and the end! we left for home after we finished walking around this area :D

isabel, yimin, charlotte, rita, emily, ms ang!

isabel, yimin, charlotte, rita, emily, beryl!

"V" for ventures! :DD

i never expected to see soooooo many nature reserves in sg! pretty amazing! :D

especially when we went for the HSBC treetop walk, and macritchie, bukit timah, mangrove..

how on earth did we manage to make it so modern so that we could walk through it, or walk through the canopy, but preserve the ecosystem and the environment?!

simply amazing amazing!

and i think i like the plants alot more after this camp :D

plus, i really enjoyed this camp ALOT!

and i like all the ventures better. i know them better, see better and worse sides of them, and i think they're all nice :D

i dont regret choosing ventures. i love it! :D

(post finished at 6.51 pm, nearly 5 hours over due T_T)

oh well, i had fun writing this entry :D

ticked.

2010-03-10T16:19:00.003+08:00

just cause you did it once doesnt mean youve been the only one doing it everyday.

-.-

i dont like your bootlicking ways. trying to make other people look bad to make yourself look better?

ohwell, the truth will come out sooner or later.

&btw, if you reallllly have been doing it everyday, then how come it's still so dirty? lol.

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i havent been doing any more than you, so i keep my mouth shut.

at least i dont go around bragging about my insignificant, negligible contributions -.-

beryl will shut up and walk the walk, not just talktalktalk.

2010-03-08T20:11:00.003+08:00

today yingying said something!

if i hadnt went to lecture the leaders in the first place, then they wouldnt have tried to bully us, then none of this trouble would have occurred.

at first i felt ticked that she was not approving of me to fight!

then i realised, they were saying that i should have been more tactful!

i thought i was pretty tactful already. but my choice of words wasnt very pleasant..

should have went "could you please help us?? there's alot and alot and alot of people and we cant manage them all T_T"

which makes alot of sense. i'ld still be prompting them to do work, and there would be almost no hard feelings!

hmm. lessons can be learnt from every unpleasant experience lol.

but i still feel that if you've already been bullied, the damage has been done, then dont bother being nice. fight for fairness! ehehe :D

CIP!

2010-03-07T17:12:00.003+08:00

eh-oh! :D

today we had CIP at OCBC cycle singapore!
3am to 11am!
i was totally excited for it! because i could spend the night before w friends! then go for cip in the middle of night ahahha! special memories that are hard to come by! :D

it was all okay, but a conflict happened.
picture this:
sweltering weather. 20 volunteers all moving and sweating and rushing to try and get as many bicycles back into the enclosed area as possible. a long long queue of tired cyclists trying to return their rented bikes. bottlenecks forming, problems happening ie:losing the slips of paper, lost waterbottles etc
3 metres away, the 2 leaders cuddle up to each other on the chairs in the shade, sleeping on each other's shoulders.

then maintain that scene for a few hours.

i was one of the volunteers. and boy, was i ticked.
i went over to the couple and said this exact phrase: "could you two please stop sleeping? everyone's busy and there's so much to do and it's just so ugh to see you two sleeping!"
mind you, my tone was very soft because i was really tired (didnt sleep the night before!) and didnt have the energy to go into a confrontational mode.
them: "hello? do you even know how we've been here everyday at 7am for the past week? of course we're very tired, dont just assume because you dont know alot of things"
me: "we're tired too, we didnt sleep the night before. and we've been waking at 5 everyday this week too! to go to school. we're as tired as you. but at least we're putting in effort and pushing ourselves, not just sitting and sleeping here"
at this point, some guy in a white shirt interrupts. i leave the conversation and continue helping cyclists put their bikes back into the compound.

leader gets all riled up but i dont take notice; i wasn't confrontational, and i spoke the truth. why get so agitated if you're innocent?

after a while, we're told the management wants us to all go back to the airconditioned area. so we go. then we're told we can go, but 12 hours will still be given.
then our leader talks to another leader right behind us "they'll only get 8 hours. it's a personal decision between my manager and i"

pamela and i heard it. loud and clear.
we asked other people. everyone gets 12hours apart from us. and why us? because i voiced my opinion to her. so she decides she has the power to dock 4 hours off us cause she feels like doing so.

is it fair? personal relations are one thing. hours are another. i made the comment, if she wasnt happy, she can seek beef with me. but why the whole class? and who gave her the authority to give us less hours than other people (even though we put in the same amt of effort) just cause she feels like it?

this hurts my pride. i will not let myself be bullied. and i cannot let others be bullied because of me. so i insisted that i wanted 12 hours, like any other group. i was told to wait, to see the management and discuss the issue with them.
but most of them just didnt want trouble, and were okay with 8 hours.
one even went to the extent of telling me that, if i were to ask to see the management over the hours, then i would be ruining rv's reputation and image, because i would make everyone see rvians as hour-diggers who want to squeeze every last little bit of credit we could from a cip event. but i dont see it that way.
i dont need the hours, i dont yearn for them. i'm asking for the hours, because i see it as speaking out against being bullied, as standing up for yourself. why should i just sit there and let you deduct my hours?

damn right i'm gonna do something about it.

why is it that so many people fear trouble to the point they'll take blows lying down?
then again, some view it as a small thing; not worth getting flustered over.
there's merit to that point..
but then again, i'm the type who stubbornly insists that everything is done fairly, down the the last minute detail. 我会活得很辛苦，但我愿意!
i may be an idiot for being obstinate, but i'll be a happy idiot! :D

there was this leader of ayesha's group who was very nice, and he felt we should get 12 hours too. he tried to sign for our forms, but got stopped and reprimanded for anyhow signing papers..
i'm really grateful to the guy for trying to help us! and sorry for getting him into trouble>_<

so anyway, pamela and i stayed, and we managed to speak to a very very busy management lady (shuhui? >_<), who very nicely sat through our rantings.. then she shared w us the leader's point of view and situation, but agreed that the hours should be the same as everybody else, to be fair.

so we got the 12 hours back.
i'm glad in the end i decided to stay and fight for the 4 hours. it makes me feel alot more justified. i suspect i might be full of regrets if i had decided to just leave it as it is.

thanks to pamela, who insisted we stay, and also 3 guys that we met. they're from ite, but they're opinionated and morally upright.
made 3 new friends then :D

i'll fight for what i believe in.
i want to live my life making decisions i wont regret later.

it may irritate you, but you could have chosen to withdraw your own paper individually. you didnt anyway, and i wonder why.
to not stick out? or to benefit from whatever benefits that might have happened? who knows.

funny fact:
winnie knows me well ahha!! :D
when siewhwee was trying to convince me to live and let live, winnie said "aiya 她是这样的啦，你讲她没有用的。"
it's.. funny and weird at the same time lol!

201th post!

2010-03-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

should it be "201th post" or "201st post"?

O_O

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im starting to like being in rv more!

everything's getting so humourous lol!

my principal said this:

"mr chua was talking about the boys not tucking in their t-shirts when they're out of school.

but i like to look at the girls skirts instead...because.. i'm a man."

LOL!!!! in case what he says gets taken out of context, he continues with this

"some girls have their skirts soo short.. they look like clowns"

so he's not a pervert lol.

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ms tan's been funny all the while ahaha! please refer to all recent posts. they're mostly about her kekeke :D

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even mr pang's gotten funnier! in math tutorial today he was suddenly joking about alot of things O_O then he explained everything we asked!!

which is totally different from the way he taught last year! i like the new mr pang :D

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ohohohohohoh. nownownownownow!!

sigh

2010-03-02T19:33:00.002+08:00

i dont like disappointments.

i hate making other people disappointed even more.

but i've let everyone down recently D:

i was too slow on my math test; i only did 2 out of 4 questions.

i was slow and didnt practice enough for physics; i made stupid mistakes and didnt finish D:

i'm very disappointed in myself.. i did study, i swear. but because i didnt practice, i was slow and careless.. it's like wasting all the time spent on studying.. i feel unjustified and stupid and idiotic.

these few words cant really express the depth of the mix of emotions i'm experiencing..

regretregretregret.

and worse still- i end up making my teachers disappointed too. they've put effort into teaching, explaining, marking, giving us extra lessons & remedials. then i pay them back by flunking tests and wasting the effort they've spent on me. i'ld hate to have myself as my student.

note to self:

if im not prepared to put in my time and effort, dont waste the time and effort of my teachers.

:D:

2010-02-26T22:43:00.003+08:00

the title of the post seems to have been posted before!..

yesterday i got scolded by ms tan and i was sad!

today i got scolded by ms tan but i ended up being sad, then reflective, then worried, then sad, then happy again! :D

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yesterday i didnt listen to instructions properly then i didnt add the ammeter into the circuit! then somehow, there was an overload! then the power supply started beeping really loudly then ms tan shouted 'whose powersupply(i think it was that) overloaded?!' then i went "diediedie" in my head and raised up my hand. then ms tan told me to "switch off the powersupply immediately!" then i quickly switched it off. then ms tan walked over and asked me why i didnt attach the ammeter. then i added the ammeter into the circuit.
it doesnt sound very scary here, but it was really very scary. then i felt sad for making her angry at me ):

today, we went through current of electricity, and asked her any questions we had! alot of the questions weren't exactly relating to the questions, but were more of the "what is the semiconductor diode used for?", "would the ammeter in this arrangement cause a short circuit?" type of questions.

then after that was over, she started on the practicals. yesterday she already told us the practical was done really badly, our basic skills arent even there, and we're probably worse than the juniors when it comes to practicals. and i was sad because it's all true. i'm still messing up very basic things like the dp(smallest range vs smallest reading) for various different measuring instruments, sf & units for my calculations, sf & dp across the rows and columns of my table, and the dp for the axes of the graph (0.03 if calculated value is 0.025!), the lg rule (no. of sf of x = no. of dp of lnx?). and all these can be drilled! can be remembered if i put in effort. i did not put in effort, i did not read them until i can recite the sf, i did not go through my past practicals enough so that i know which things i need to take note of. practicals can be Perfect.
and the practicals of her students have always been perfect, until she met us.
that kind of gives me hope.. that i can actually do well in one segment of physics.. one segment of anything.. last year's spa was so screwed up that i nearly cried walking out of the lab.

then she started on 'confidence'..
one thing i always wondered, is why the guys in my class do badly. they're smart, they can question, they can think, they can do it. so why arent their results reflecting their true ability? they're as competent as other people taking double sciences. then ms tan said "jianlong, i think you're one of those that can do well, but you obviously lack confidence". then it was like a lightbulb went on in my head. the guys lack confidence! actually, winnie and minee arent bad either, just that they arent as quick as the guys. and they dont do well either. and both really lack confidence.

those who havent felt a lack of confidence probably dont know what i'm saying.
let me give you an example. my practicals were really bad last year, partly because we were in the same class as C. i know my math is really bad, so i dare not rely on my own derivation of the equation. the doubt about myself and my work is very, very strong. i'ld always run, without fail, to huiyuan, to check her derivation. eventually, i started believing that i can't do anything on my own.

during last year's spa, i looked at the equation and panicked. is the equation a line or a curve? how do i go about doing it? ohmygod, do i need very complicated math? i really suck at math. what should i do? i'm dead. i dont have the math to do this. i cant do it.
it doesnt matter if the equation's complicated or not. i just started to believe i cant do anything.

it's the same during tutorial. i had questions, so i asked mr wong. then mr wong was like "huh?! this kind of simple thing you also dont know ah?" then he sort of explained it in a way i didnt understand, then he told me to explain it to him the following day. so i went home, but i still couldnt understand! so i started avoiding him from then on. i tried to ask 2 more questions after that incident, but he always asked the same question back and i still dont understand anything!
and i became afraid to make mistakes. we've got smart 5C people together in the class. when i give the wrong answers and make mistakes, i can hear people like yujun going "huh? what is she doing? wrong la". then it felt really idiotic and embarrassing to give wrong answers, so i simply just shut up from then on. it was much easier to just keep quiet, dont ask questions, dont answer questions, rather than ask questions and be asked the same questions back, and be seen as stupid by the smart people in class.

today ms tan asked if we felt like we couldnt do physics sometimes. we kept quiet. so she asked 'what about you, beryl?" and i answered 'sometimes'. winnie answered 'sometimes' too. and the same went for zhiyong. then ms tan said "why do you want to tell yourselves that you cant do it? when you do that, half the battle is lost already. mr koh was right, you all came in with a score that shows you all are capable, but what went wrong along the way? was it the school? what has the school done to you all?"

i was surprised and.. touched? by what ms tan said. surprised because she didn't blame us, touched because she believed in us, that we can actually do it.. i cant really quite explain the feeling.

then she told us all her students passed physics, in her 7 years of teaching, she's had no failures! there was 1 E because the guy kept skipping school, and a D because the boy never bothered to do his work. the rest were C and above. then i felt another twinge of hope! i also cannot quite explain why.

then for some reason, she started to talk about the behavior of rv students! ahaha it was hilarious! some highlights:
- you all think that you are very cheeky, but actually your cheekiness is super low-level! have you all seen the cheekiness of students from other schools?
- there was this girl who left a tail, then pinned it up with alot of pins. then when i asked her why she left a tail, she looked at me and said in a shocked voice "how you know?!". i mean come on la, she put so many pins in her hair!
- rvians very toot one! all no creativity one know? if you all want to be naughty, then at least have some creativity, dont be caught la! like those 4 boys from last year, getting out of the school by crawling out through the hole in the fence.. *rolls eyes*
- there was one student who climbed the gate to get into the school! then there's this joke that students from other schools climb the school gates to get out of school, only rv students will climb a gate to get into the school.

AHAHAHAHAHA! ms tan's funny! the class was laughing when she said "toot"! it's super funny to hear a teacher using that phrase to describe us lol! ms tan's very unconventional and very nice :D
i really, really like her!

so i went to google her :D
i didnt manage to find much though. D:

appreciate! :D

2010-02-24T18:07:00.002+08:00

after complaining almost nonstop for the past few days/weeks/months, its time to be appreciative~ :DD

i'm glad im in rv after all :D

we've got a funny principal, the best teachers you can possibly find, and the kindest people around. :D

so i'm still pretty blessed to be here! :D

:D:D:D

ms tan ying leng (i think i spelt it wrong.. ms tan ying ling?) said something that made me go "oh!" today!

"you can bring the horse to the river, but you cant make it drink what!"

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about being appreciative...

P koh said "imagine your mum spending alot of time to cook for you guys a nice dinner. then you pick up the chopsticks and start complaining 'too salty!' 'overcooked!' 'i dont like this, i dont want to eat this!'.. how would your mum feel?"

i know what he was trying to get at, and i also felt angry cause i know of a certain person who's exactly like that. complains about every single little thing and doesnt even bother to try and feel appreciative. then you start to bad mouth the person who did all these for you. wth? you havent got any right to do that.

everytime you complain with that pained expression, i feel like punching you.

if you think it's done so badly, then go and cook dinner for the family yourself! what's with the disdainful attitude?

you always claim it's so easy, so why dont you do it then? it should be a breeze for you.

you've talked the talk; so please walk the walk, or shut up and stop talking.

no stupid excuses please.

she's doing her part, and more.

you're cant even do your part properly, content to just slack all day long.

who are you to complain?

2010-02-14T16:12:00.002+08:00

a.t.h.

CNY!

2010-02-12T23:17:00.002+08:00

ohoho! :D

today school ended at about 10!

so 6p had a class outing :D

then 14 of us went to JP together..
yeeshuang, winnie, minee, cher, jie en, natasha, sophia, pamela, siewhwee, chengzong, jianlong, zhiyong, kunhong!

then we went to eat at swensen's! cause there's a 1 for 1 lunch promo going on :DD
winnie didnt eat w us cause she was waiting for palmer!

then we walked a bit, and zhiyong the bottomless-pit kept buying additional food along the way. -.-
then jianlong got influenced and bought extra pastries too lol!

then we went over to pamela's house to play the game of life! & poker cards later on.
there's this part of the game where you can switch salary cards! so it's important to keep your salary a secret from the other players. since it's easy to see a person's salary when the banker passes her her salary on pay-days, everyone tries to keep it out of view of the others!
but zhiyong was suuuuuuuuuper serious during the game and kept all his game money is his WALLET! lol!!!
then everyone was like "waaaaaaaah! does he have a lot of salary or something?!"
in the end he had the lowest salary LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hilarious.

yeap then i came home, watched teevee and started to do random things on the computer, like now.

happy cny everyone! :D

2010-02-07T14:39:00.002+08:00

ehehe!

i was cropping photos and stuff for 6p's noticeboard! :DD

then when finding photos, i found this baby photo of myself:

aha! i'm a cute baby, if i may say so myself. hehe.
i think most of the people in class are already super irritated by me proclaiming that sentence at least twice a day lol.

there's this saying that if you're a cute baby, you'ld be an ugly adult! and if you're an ugly baby, you're a beautiful adult! (i think it's rather true)
& so my mum was telling me about how she'll occasionally look at my (and my sister's) cute baby faces and worry if we'ld turn out terrible as adults.

ohoho.

you know there's this chinese game for kids right, they'll place all sorts of stuff infront of the kid then see what the kid takes, then take it as an indicator of what the kid's occupation will be in the future!

i'm holding a hammer and a saw lol.
maybe an engineer? architect?

ehehe.

sigh D:

2010-02-05T22:44:00.002+08:00

i'm finding issues with so many things..

lately, it's people.

there's people i cant read at all. they seem to be like nice on the outside, but they're actually doing unkind things behind backs. then they seem to be a wholly nice person again. so what are they? and what exactly are they thinking?

there's also people who try to put up kind/benevolent fronts, but in doing so, say alot of things they dont mean. i appreciate the effort to be kind, but please do put some responsibility into the words. when the words repeatedly fail to be true, the trust disappears;
it's a little like the boy who cried wolf. these people eventually become people who arent believable.

then there's people whose honesty i appreciate, but whose attitude i dont. they have the freedom to express their thoughts; but i, too, have the freedom to express mine. i respect their thoughts, so please, respect mine too. if you dont agree with my thinking, please put it across to me nicely. just because my thoughts arent like yours, it doesnt mean i'm wrong or 'not thinking enough'.
there's no absolute way of doing things, or an absolutely right point of view. a compromise could be reached.

you express your opinion, but when i want to express mine, you shut down and say i could 'take it or leave it'. why only speak but not listen? if you want me to listen, please listen to me too.
then you could decide if you want to 'take or leave' my opinion.
to ensure the relationship continues, wont it be better to reach compromises? or like mr pang said, to 'agree to disagree' amiably.
i feel like our relationship's strained. i'm trying to keep things friendly, but when your harsh opinions hit me again and again, it's hard.

i can sense you're trying not to express your opinion sometimes, but it's all written in your facial expressions.. and i know if you're unhappy, you're bound to talk about it to other people.
choice 1: we take all the unhappiness onto the table and talk/discuss about it, reach a compromise then we all leave the table happy.
choice 2: we express all the unhappiness out, but you're unwilling to compromise and it's just awkward and frustrating handling the animosity.
choice 3: we not talk about it at all, you talk to other people about it, & it eventually becomes talking about me behind my back.

currently we're either 3 or 2. could we try for choice 1, please?

please dont ask who these people are. i just needed to let out my frustration and sorrow.

AIYOOOOOO!

2010-02-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

wah!

the first few days of school has been like this:

collect money.

collect some more money.

collect money. no money? break piggy bank.

all the notes are coming fast and furious, & so is the rate of my money going out aha.

econs notes! math notes! physics notes! physics prac! elit books! GP notes!

and now i've been bombed with another 8 dollar debt!

WAH CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!

the money for the notes are understandable, but the 8 dollars (solely for orientation) is not!

it comprises of:

- 3 dollar entry to sentosa

- transportation to sentosa

- my lunch

- materials for games?

i have several issues

- why sentosa? it's costly, and we need transportation!

why not in school? it's a new campus, we needed to get familiarized with it anyway. i was still getting lost 1-2 weeks ago!

- why didnt they take into consideration the cost of the orientation when planning?!

not everyone is rich you know! i'm in debt! my family has financial constraints! i'm saving on my pocket money so that i can help pay for my notes/stationery/transportation!

do they think everyone can just open their mouths and ask their parents for more money?

they just come along and demand i pay $8 for a one-day orientation. 8dollars can fall from the sky ah?! or is 8dollars very little to them?

i'm pissed i have to pay for something i would have gladly chosen to do without.

MY SISTER'S STARING JC!

2010-01-29T21:52:00.003+08:00

oh how time flies!

my dear baby sister, whom i tortured on a regular basis when we were younger, is all grown up and entering junior college now! *sniff*

she got the enviously high score of straight As and a B3 for chinese! (eee compared to the rvip year 4 results, i got like.. 16 points?)
so she entered Anderson JC (near our house mah! :D)

and she's got a new pretty uniform! with a school tie! envious of the tie XD
and she's gonna have a brand new start, with the complete JC experience and everything!
change of school culture, the energy, the fresh new feeling!

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i'm feeling very happy for her of course :DD

but i also feel envious and inferior D:

a long long loooooooong time ago, i did well in my studies with relatively little effort. the teachers put in the effort, i just went along with them and got lucky.
my sister didnt have as much luck, so she did okay.

i got into rv and started slacking. my sister entered ganengseng and started working hard.
so i didnt get any awards in my 4 years in rv, other than the eagles award that i suspect mr gan put my name in for. (thankyou! :D)
my sis, on the other hand, got 3 consecutive edusave scholarships and an eagles award.

then we both took exams at sec 4 level.
i barely got promoted into year 5 with a GPA of 2.8 that was moderated to meet the GPA 3.o standard.
my sis passed her o lvls comfortably with straight As and a B3. and 8 points.
and entered AJC! :D

my jc experience doesnt really exist. it's more like an extended secondary school life.
i havent ever worn a school tie before. whats a change in school culture like? the school rules are about the same. that cant be helped cause i'm not in a jc after all. rules cant be bent/changed just for the year5&6; we mustn't forget about the year1-4.
my sis is in a new jc; she's starting to adapt to the new environment, the new people, the new culture! everything's fresh and exciting. she's no longer a secondary school student.

i'll have the ip experience (extended secondary school experience) that most people won't get to experience. but i'll also miss out on the JC experience that most people do get to experience.

but life goes on.

i hope very much to graduate with an A lvl cert that will get me to where i want to be.
because my ip cert is not recognised. art schools dont even know about rvip.
the ip cert is supposedly equivalent to, or better than, the o lvls. but that's all claims by the ex-p. other schools dont seem to agree.

i'm so very, very worried.

the fear and uncertainty's got my heart in a vice-like grip;
the cords tighten and it's getting harder to breathe.

2010-01-13T17:35:00.003+08:00

I chose rv

because I was poor in chinese

and rv had a chinese environment.

可是我没有资格当立化的学生。

this isn't reverse psychology;
this just really hurts.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

2009-12-24T19:10:00.011+08:00

ALOHA! ANNYEONG!

Merry Christmas everyoneeee :D

nah! gift i stole from the web:

As a gift to you all (free reading material! xD), and to myself, i shall blog about what i've been up to this december!

Summary:
Sewing bear clothes/ ponchos for the ventures seniors and ourselves
Baking cupcakes for j2s, asls and ourselves
Sushi!
RoD Party!
Baking cookies for christmas
Games Carnival @ lakeside (for you tuyan! :D)
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Sewing bear clothes:
the j2s are stepping down this year.. so we had to prepare RoD presents! and plan the Rod :D
We had 2 options: either we get them funny underwear (charlotte's idea!) or make them venture bears! in the end we went with the bears.
we saw cute little bears going for 3.99 each at giant hypermarket! so we grabbed 10!
(last week we saw the same bears going for 1.99 each T_T)
then we went to clementi to buy the cloth to make the venture clothes. the cloth we found were astoundingly similar in colour to the real venture uniforms! :D

then we adjoined to rita's house to start making it. the shirts were !@#$%^&*(^%$ difficult to make! i put the cloth onto each bear, then sew it. but the results were ugly. yimin cut out the cloth, sew it into clothes, then put it onto the bear. but the shirts frayed -.-
the cloth was too delicate!

so after 6 hours, lotsa magdalene portuguese egg tarts (courtesy of rita's mum) and milo, we had... 2 shirts -.-
but efficient rita made all 10 pairs of pants! :DD

then we started to fit the clothes on! and they looked adorable! pictures here:

Rita cutting out the pants. she has a future as a seamstress.

Yimin in one of her many attempts to sew a shirt that actually fits :X

a few of the failed products.. see the frayed edges?

ooh! one complete bear, another half-dressed bear!
i think that scarf is one of the prettiest.

isabel, yimin and rita hard at work! :D
i wasnt slacking of course. i was taking pictures! 8D

The 2nd day of making clothes! look at the date of the photos at the bottom right! :D

isabel cutting cutting! :D

a fully dressed and partially dressed bear~ :D

bear beachwear! :D

look carefully! the bear's wearing a.. PONCHO! :DDD

or raincoat, for non UG people :D

complete bear! :D

bear shirt! that fits i think.
either that, or it's frayed. i cant remember..

yimin helping a bear wear a shirt!
she'll make a good mummy! ^^

3 musketeers! :DD

poor naked bear on the left looking on sadly D:

bruce lee bear! muahaha. yimin's idea
sorry for all the lopsided pictures! too lazy to flip 'em over!

frayed shirts! D:

cutting a real poncho (rita's spoilt one)to make bear ponchos!!

yeah! a bear wearing a poncho :DD

ok that's it for the bears!

now let's move on to the ROD! :D

ROD PREPARATION

other than bears, we also made sushi!

isabel, the sushi master, brought along a sushi book! and there was this cute panda sushi! charlotte was trying to do it, but..

charlotte at work! :D

sushi picture in the sushi book!

prettiest sushi!

ugliest sushi! AHHAHAA

MY OWN TOOTHPASTE SUSHI AHAHA :DDD

tray of sushi! 1 out of 2 :DD

our cupcakes! j2s and j1s and asls :D

yimin!

isabel!

rita!

charlotte!

emily!

me! i'm beryl

snowman~ :D

jinghui!

edwin!

pinglin!

weichang!

terence!

sherman!

deming!

wei rong!

stanley!

samson!

binxing!

ivan!

and the grand artist, yimin!

yay! :D

LAKESIDE FAMILY CENTRE ACTIVITIES :D
ok! so now we're finally moving on to this! nah, tuyan! new year present for you ahaha

i went w the kids to kong guan bun factory! then they took my phone and played around w it, and took this picture! cute aha

the next thing coming up was a games carnival that we were preparing a few games for.
so here are the pics:
sorting alphabets! waah took me 3 days to sort half a pack! omsk!

the carnival hadnt started yet, so we were just taking out the stuff. that's the nail booth, head shovel, green beans, cans and alphabet stalls combined! ohohoho

you see the box w the green covering? we covered it w a ground sheet to form a mini pool!

putting colourful arrows on the floor to lure little kiddies in muahaha

head shovel! :D

treasure hunt!

tin can alley~

the alphabet stall :D

they stuck their names onto wooden clothespins!

OKAY NO MORE!! :D

FINALLY THE LAST TOPIC!
MAKING CHRISMAS COOKIES.

uhuhu. i thought i'ld never finish this entry. i started on x mas eve and it's jan 2nd now -.-

mix mix mix!

snowman shapes. or to quote the little girl in 'to kill a mockingbird'..
"look! a nigger snowman!"

actually, i dont get why "nigger" is a bad word O_O
sounds pretty cute, if you ask me.

ok! a tray!

and now.. the snowman catwalk! :DD

the cute snowman

the vampire snowman!

the thief/ghost/ku klux klan snowman
looks like junsu from 2pm! ehehe

the business men

the snowman w a scarf!

gentlemanly snowman?

either snowman or chrismas tree

AHAHA A CJ7 SNOW~~MAN~~HEAD!
AHAHA!

the artist behind most of the works! cheryl :D

AHA OK BYEBYE THE END!
happy new yearrrrrrrr :D

sick and infected.

2009-12-03T19:55:00.002+08:00

spent the whole of today sleeping.
i'm sick.

down with a cold. so my fan is off, i'm wearing socks and a windbreaker.
and i'm sleeping.

i seriously advise people out there who feel cold, to wear socks!
it really really helps.

i feel very unproductive. sleeping gets kinda boring and i feel like im wasting my time.

ok! so i've rested the whole day. needa start studying from tomorrow. you may call me an idiot if you find me doing something else other than studying.

shall not waste the efforts of others.
你欠的不只自己；还有为你努力的人。
从没想过我也是相信的小烧。

sick sick!

2009-12-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

im sick D:

3 of my family members are down with flu/cold in 3 days! whoa O_O

everyone, take care of yourself! drink more water :D

&sleep earlier.
plus you get to drop less hair as a bonus! :D

less than a month. i havent even started revising!
omg.
i need to start and get myself back on track!

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been very busy lately. you know there's millions of alphabets in one pack of alphabet pasta right? ive been sorting them one by one into A,B,C,D,E,F,G,H,I,J,K,L,M,N,O,P,Q,R,S,T,U,V,W,X,Y,Z.
oh, and 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

my shoulders are aching! and fingers too
and 2 days have gone.
AND IM NOT EVEN DONE SORTING! IVE ONLY DONE HALF THE PACKET!!!!!!!
T_T

like my mum says "自找麻烦"
but when you see the kids happy, everything becomes worth it ^^

i dont like actors

2009-11-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

dont act humble when you arent;
dont act kind and helpful when you arent;

it's cringe-worthy to watch, and it makes you look cheap.
you only are truly humble, kind and helpful, when you are like that all the time;
or at least, when you're like that even at times you stand to gain nothing.

dont use words to make yourself out to be someone you arent;
you plan questions, then anticipate answers. then use those answers to make yourself feel better. when the answer wasnt what you expected, you dropped your pretense in surprise.

*cute voice*: "aww dont be like that la.." "do you want to switch yours with mine?"
*me, pissed with your acting*: "yes."
*cute voice*: "huh? why you like that one? whats up with your attitude?"
*me* : "-.-"

if you had no intention of carrying out the action, why ask the question?
when i said 'yes', i was already fully expecting you to change your mind.
and lo and behold, you did. and you even started questioning my "attitude".
so saying "no" is correct, and saying "yes" means i've got the wrong attitude?

dont waste my time.

so patient!

2009-11-15T10:42:00.002+08:00

jo kwon is so patient! and good at calming people down.

i wanna be like him too! or find a husband that's like that.

watch from 2:20 onwards
till 4:34!

i wanna be like that! ^^

2009-11-14T22:41:00.002+08:00

at first i didnt really like this song.
thought it sounded odd. especially the rap infront.

but the zombie dance and running's got me in a trance.
it's pretty heartwrenching when you hear the fangirls shouting and the details of jaebeom's leave from 2pm.

park jaebeom, kim junsu
nickkhun, ok taecyeon
jang wooyoung, lee junho
hwang chansung, 2pm

if you want to skip the rapping, just go straight to 0:48.
zombie dance's at 1:15 onwards

still, its easier said than done.

2009-11-13T21:53:00.003+08:00

i always think positively of people when i first meet them.

i started to realise that i like to think everyone nice that i've just met, is perfect.

but when their flaws start to appear as i get closer to them, spend more time with them, then i'ld get agitated and feel "why are you like that? why do you have this-and-that flaws?"

so yeah. i still havent found that perfect person that can withstand the test of time.

but i've grown a bit now! :D

i've realised that everyone has flaws.

flaw's arent a big thing. everyone has them.
the matter is how i go about dealing with them.

do i find a way to navigate round that flaw so that it doesnt pose as a problem in friendship, or do i keep the flaw in mind, and bring it up every time the person commits a wrong?

change myself to overcome each individual's flaw! :DD

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in other news,

GO TO HELL SM ENTERTAINMENT!

lying scumbags! they're twisting everything around! and they're making me doubt dbsk too! damn you, you greedy, selfish, grubby, disgusting and downright revolting entertainment company and executives. kimyoungmin, you deserve to rot. or at least suffer alot.

http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/tvxqs_response_to_sm_entertainment/
http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/tvxq_2010_comeback_is_impossible/

rawh!!

ntu lecturer funny!

2009-11-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

from fenghan's blog:

i like my current estate

2009-11-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

the place im living in now, has alot of kids running around.

which makes sense since this estate is pretty new.
the kids are cute.

and looking at them makes me remember how i spent my childhood.

when i was in nursery and kindergarten, my mum would cycle me to school! i sat on the little rack where people tie their loads. my mum tied pillowcases there to make the seat more comfortable. its amazing to think my butt was once so small it could fit there O_O

yeap. so i'ld sit there then hug my mum's waist tight. then the ride'll be bumpy, and go up down, up down! then my mum'll sweat and i'll be hugging a sweaty back aha.

the last time i rode like that was in primary4. the 2nd last time was in kindergarten i think.

then whenever it rained, my mum'll make me wear a yellow raincoat! and slippers. then put my school socks and shoes in a bag. then i'll reach school, my mum'll squat down and help me dry my feet and help me wear my socks and shoes, then i'll go into the school hall. i wasnt really capable of drying my feet, i dont know why. but i didnt like going to school with slippers, cause nobody did that. plus i dont like getting any part of myself wet, including my feet. so i'ld rather go to school wearing shoes and get the shoes wet, but my feet drier.
which is odd, since the wet shoes will soak my socks, which will make my feet wet.
but young kids dont seem to have much sense. O_O

i used to protest my mum's actions aha.

i love my mummy! :D

i highly recommend

2009-11-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

read this:

http://yvonne1503.tumblr.com

i guarantee you'll be in awe.

or at least i was.

this is from her blog. LOL!

I AM STEALING SIEWLIN'S BLOG POSTS!!

2009-11-02T18:03:00.003+08:00

heh. im a plagarizer :D
and a robber too.

but her posts are meaningful :D

Forgiveness by Paul Gordon and John Caird

You mustn't be revengeful
You have to be strong
To offer good for evil
Return right for wrong
We must not hold a grudge
And we must learn to endure
Then as God is your judge
At least your heart will be pure

Forgiveness is the mightiest sword
Forgiveness
Of those you hate
Will be your highest reward

When they bruise you with words
When they make you feel small
When it's hardest to bear
You must do nothing at all

Forgiveness is the simplest vow
Forgiveness
Of all their crimes
Is your deliverance now

Bless those souls
Who would curse your name
When the last bell tolls
You'll be free of blame

You can continue to grieve
But know the gospel is true
You must forgive those who lie
And bless them that curse you

Forgiveness is the mightiest sword
Forgiveness
Of those you fear
Will be your highest reward

The time will come when we will leave this world, and the injustice and
the pain and the sin will fall away from us, and only the spark of the
spirit will remain--returning to God who created it.

You must never lose Faith
You must never lose Heart
God will restore your trust
And I know you're afraid
I'm as scared as you are
But willing to be brave

i wont be vengeful; but i'll speak out :DD

AND THIS VIDEO TOO!

if we all did a bit, the result is astonishing! :DD

hot chocolate. huhu

2009-10-30T22:58:00.005+08:00

the kpop hiatus's still going on! :DD

ee but im really really curious already! D:

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needa rush already! not many days left till he leaves.

wah D:

gotta remember to get card from iris too!

looking forward to going to feng's :DD

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PW WR is finally over.

it's let me see the true character of many people! while i like some people more, i like some people way, way, wayyyyyyy less..

not very nice characters they've got. i got so frustrated and worked up.
very tiring working w these types of people.

i havent gotten so worked up since.. sec 3.

i've never been so angry to the point i call people up in the wee hours of the morning and go ballistic on them; then call and explode again the following afternoon.

to all these unbearable slackers:

i hope you all get grouped together with a bunch of fellow slackers in the future too!
then we'll see how you like it when you gotta work w rubbish-y people.

Work is done by someone; it doesnt complete itself.

when you do less work, someone else's gotta do more. when you sleep more, someone else has to sleep less. and if you choose to continue slacking even after knowing someone else is paying the consequences of your laziness;

you're not fit to freaking tread the ground that i am walking on.

hello world

2009-10-18T13:16:00.002+08:00

its the holidays. doesnt really feel like one. which is a good thing.

cause i tend to let myself go, and ive got too many important things to do to afford that.

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my sister's o lvls are coming soon. i think she's been overbearing.
but whos to say i wont be the same when the A lvl draws near? i hope i wont, though.

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currently working on a project and PW.

if you're an avid collector of photos taken at school, or a current/former student at RV.
please come find me :D

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going on an abstinence from kpop! im curious about the current happenings and i wanna read it! as well as listen to all the new music that's being released. but it takes up so much of my time. sigh.

i promised my sis i'll go on a hiatus w her. byebye kpop. maybe, hopefully, i'ld start to care alot less after the hiatus.

CHUSEOK SPECIAL! :D

2009-10-04T21:57:00.003+08:00

its after my promos now! :D

still have got the o lvl hcl paper to take though T_T and pw too..

my grades were scrapping the bare minimum. need to relearn 1 years worth of work in 2 months..

dont waste the chance you idiot!

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on a happier note, it's chuseok! (for korean it's like thanks giving)

for us it's the mid-autumn festival (gorge on mooncakes! i miss my agar-agar mooncakes D:)

and it also means festivals involving idol groups! :DDD

highly entertaining vids! (from best to not-as-good-but-still-good ones)

1. SUPER JUNIOR! (warning: SUPER HILARIOUS!!)

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEeIGFuerqM

2. SNSD!

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GdvdH3OBi8

3. Mini BaekJiYoung + Mini TaecYeon

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89PHTViFKJE

4. SNSD

url:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nEvB4CeSYQ

5. After School

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWLLODbg7jI

The Super Junior item would be wayyyyyyyy more funny if you've seen performances of the very popular korean songs before :DD

im.. not studying. TMR I MUST!

2009-09-15T23:36:00.005+08:00

guilty guilty. 明天死了也得读。

meanwhile, SJ-M's new song is out!

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pit7RS4mPI0

the english lyrics are corny, the dance moves are a little too 'shooper shooper' at times, but overall the song is nice! and i like the chinese lyrics aha.

hankyung plays the nerd! the nerd's very dorky and super adorable. like how he shuffled his feet around to tape jessica, and how he expressed his sadness! even how he transformed into superman lol!

this song wont burn up the charts like SorrySorry, but it'll be pretty close i guess :D

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and i listened to "Sugar" by Flo Rida today.. the song is pretty nice! da-double dee-double di-da~
but it gets boring really quickly..
the mv isnt really worth watching though, so im not posting it.

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3 papers down! 2 more very important ones to go!

mathmathmath! phyphyphy!
prove myself. but its not quite possible ):

exams

2009-09-14T19:52:00.001+08:00

its the 2nd day and im dying

i like econs. or at least i used to

i wonder why i dread it so much now..

maybe its because i've never passed it before, with the exception of 1 essay.

oh my god oh my god.

2009-09-11T09:30:00.001+08:00

ex-pres bush won the top accolade for best mangled english w this statement:

"Our enemies are innovative and resourceful and so are we. They never stop thinking about new ways to harm our country and our people, and neither do we."

HAHA. he'll be a really good comedian! ^^

2009-09-10T19:11:00.002+08:00

saw this on a website lol!

"100 years ago, in the United States of America, people said that if one day a black man ever became the President, pigs will fly.

After Barrack Obama's inauguration: swine flew everywhere"

haha! take it w a pinch of salt :DD

TAKE A LOOK AT THIS! :D

2009-09-03T20:09:00.001+08:00

super hilarious.
watch at your own risk!

wish i could upload the econs oscar closing video too!

the econs dept is super fun haha! XD

teachers day! :D

2009-09-01T12:56:00.006+08:00

today is teachers day!

so yesterday was the celebration!

made little cupcakes :D

pictures below:

mixed egg and water w the flour and stuff :D

mix and mix! :D

mix somemore!

crush the oreos~ :D

the remnants of oreo-destruction

add it in~

one..

then two....

THEN MANY MANY :D

completed muffins!
the fingers of the ~~chief chef~~ sidekick popped into the picture
for some reason the picture's rotated here, but appears fine in my com O_O

MUFFIN ARMY!

many of it ended up in my stomach XD
imagine the calories.. D:
i always say i wanna be slim then eat so much stuff D:

close-up! the cornflakes are supposed to be the wings. angel cupcake :D

packages

then yesterday, i went back to rmps! ex students werent allowed in.. so we just passed my presents to the cleaning lady who promised to help me pass it to the teachers. i wrote my number on the packages, and asked the teachers to send me an sms if they receive it.

i didnt get any sms. SO THE LADY SCAMMED ME! D:
T_T T_T T_T

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after that i met w xintian! and we bought bubble tea! the lady forgot to add pearls, then when i informed her of her mistake, i thought she would cut open the packaging, pour the contents into another cup then add pearls, and seal it again. but noo! she cut open the top, put in pearls, then put some plastic cover over it -.-

i shall try my best not to buy bubble tea from sweettalk again.

shall go try bubble queue! :DD

teachers day!

2009-08-29T11:17:00.002+08:00

WOOOO~
it's coming soon! :D

you know, i never really did anything for teachers day, until i was in... sec3?
i actually remember making some snowglobe with the little dustbins used to store candies in p1.
but i forgot why i gave ms juliet lim that. it's either teachers day or her birthday, or it near the end of term4. but i remember she wasnt happy that day. D:

anyway! mr gan was a very very special teacher, so i started doing stuff for him and the other teachers! like ms jeanne lim, ms jaina tan. its a time to show appreciation ^^

ive also visited my pri sch every year without fail! i think i've blogged about the following quote before, but it wont hurt to do it again XD
mrs tay (p5 form!): "all these secondary school students.. when they come back, they only visit their p6 teachers.. but it was their p1-p5 teachers who built their foundation.."

yeah. so then on, i made sure to visit all! but only my p2 and p4 teachers are left. mrs janice tan even gave me a present in sec3 and sec4 when i went back to visit her :DD
ms thio.. heheh i brought xiangyun to rmps and tried to trick her into thinking xiangyun was from 4B too! she said "actually im sorry,i dont remember. but you look a lil familiar.." haha this is why i like her!! truthful and honest, but always cares about the feelings of her students *hugs*

every year when i went back i always met up with xintian, and for some reason, jinguan O_O

but this year i may not D:
xintian's going back to nanhua, jinguan has no teacher in rmps left to visit..

sigh D:

but anyway, i shall do my best for gpw! and others too :D

happy teachers day! to any teacher who might be snooping around and reading my blog :D

i am..

2009-08-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

up and down, up and down!

3 weeks for me to clear up my act.

guilty guilty guilty.

teacher's day is comin' up.. looks like i wont be able to fulfill the promise i made to myself long ago D:

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getting tired of certain things.

things dont have to be done your way. whether you like it or not.

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confused confused.

i screwed up my phy spa. felt terrible for the whole day.

felt better after crying and peptalk by my aunt :D

i'll learn things from this episode! :DD

mr wong was so cute during the prac lol.

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many many things to do. time! i command you to stand still!

nah dont want.

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everyone's got the addiction. but they get along~

eeteuk is hilarious! esp when compared to jessica!

2009-08-10T16:55:00.003+08:00

hmm all of my posts recently have been on superjunior O_O

ah well; one more! ^^

taken directly from sookyoung.wordpress.com
url: http://sookyeong.wordpress.com/2009/08/10/guess-what/#more-14556

eeteuk the bug fighter! XDD

they should learn from SNSD's jessica:

heheh :D

hilarious stuff!

2009-08-04T21:59:00.005+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR CRACK MOMENTS :D

i'm going crazy over them lol xD

url:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KI_BbTZeUzQ

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqokDEOb7mY

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4nhqjS6DmCc
donghae speaking english is super adorable!! especially when kibum, who is perfectly capable of speaking english, just stands there and laughs lol!

2009-07-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDIpjv8TiXw

the little girl is super adorable haha!

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTv-e-iEsRo
latest addiction! :D
love the Ga-In's short hair! ^^

and their music is nice~
especially the techno at the start 8D

... and more blah!

2009-07-18T13:15:00.005+08:00

for some reason i cant really explain, i like my previous post.
(i know why already. it was clear and concise, had alot of spaces, and short and sweet! plus it had eeteuk's picture haha)

so im kinda reluctantly posting now cause it would mean pushing down the previous post!!

but yeah, here i am, still posting -.-

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so, results are back!

you know, i previously stated i expect myself to pass elit and econs, get 30/100 for physics and 20/85 for maths?

i did way way wayyyyyyy worse than i expected.

i totally flunked econs, got 34(or 36)/100, maths (12/85), physics (35/100) and passed elit, but only barely (32.5/60). i barely passed GP too, (26.5/50), i think.

hmm i screwed up the econs essay.. i remember thinking, eh, the paper was easy! and it didnt test on all the topics like perfect competition and what not.. but the paper did test all the other pics.. just that i didnt spot any of it -.-

maths, i kinda gave up on it, so i expected to fail badly. but mr pang was still very nice even though i didnt put in effort and am lazy. he tried to encourage us and said he could see us trying, and so now we've got remedial on wednesdays! :D

physics! i could have gotten at least a 40 if i didnt make the careless mistakes! i forgot that weight(force) is mass x gravity. forgetting to times the 'gravity' in cost me 5 marks. D:
(i know 40 is still a fail, but sounds better than 30-something mah! :D)
winnie was totally robbed! instead of writing "momentum is the product of mass and velocity" she wrote "momentum is mass times velocity" and got a zero for it. D: she worked really hard for this paper..you can see her asking questions, practicing papers, re-doing the examples.. she did really well for her section B, it was her MCQ that cost her.. and she could do the questions correctly now! wonder what happened while she was taking the paper.
ohoh! and the marker was funny lol! for the last question right, i got 0! but instead of writing "0" which looks very ugly and pathetic, she/he wrote "zero" to make it look less bad lol! bet it ms tan yingling! we were comparing hardwriting haha.

elit! highest was 36.5 (cheehooi)
when i heard the marks it reminded me of the marks everyone got during Critical Literacy class in sec3. then mr prince didnt scold us for the marks, he just reassured us we weren't "the bottom of the pack" haha :D

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wanted to do a post on my birthday!

i even took pics of all the presents i got so that i could post it here! the pics are in the com but im lazy to upload. heh

thanks to all the people for the presents and letters!
safaha for the notebook and the movie!
fenghan for the chocolates and the cute mug and the letter!
fenghan's pork for the chocolates!
my aunt for the hongbao!
my mum for the shoes!
my sis for the shirt!
isabel for the chocolates!
huiyuan for the cow pouch!
siewlin, natasha, joanne, pamela, michelle for the ripples slippers!
minee, natasha, sophia for the cake!
li lin for the letter!

and also the manymany people for the birthday messages and smses! thank you all for remembering^^ never had so many people remember before XD HAPPY! :DD

i expected myself to grow fatter during the june holidays, but to my extreme surprise, i grew slimmer! O_O
the sch skirt was loose!

but now ive grown fatter after sch reopened. -.-
maybe the sch food's more oily than home cooked stuff.

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super junior - sorry sorry (dance version)

just released a few days ago!! finally able to see who's dancing where and which part.
do wish there was a higher quality one around, but hey, better having one MQ to watch than nothing :D

more cute pictures! heh :D

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if you wanna give, then give without restrictions! give with a hell lot of restrictions, and it isnt considered giving, its more like contractual leasing -.-

and stop cooking up excuses. selfish = selfish! no = no! dont try to make yourself sound better by going "but i dont really want..." you just really mean "no". this is pathetic.

and this isnt the first time either. what about the previous time eh?

i'ld like to share. cause costs can be reduced, and everyone gets what they want!
when you asked for all my korean songs, didnt i give it all to you?

you claim you want to share too and blahbalbhalbha with all the noble aims.
then again, you claim alot of stuff that you dont do. you only 'do' after arguments/ getting scolded. do you think you're credible?

you claim this, claim that. at the end of the day, it's still all claims. anything done to show for it? nope. pfft.

now im considering if i should just wall you out. then i wont feel so wronged and there wont be this one-sided sharing.
then again, if i start being like you, then sharing will never take place. only leasing will.

what a pathetic scene.

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as everybody knows, im a glutton!

i like to eat. alot. so naturally, my pocket money is spent on eating too. so i like, save 10dollars in half a year? O_O

but im determined to start saving! this week i managed to save 10 dollars! *so proud of myself*
then i blew it all teenage magazines ( x 2) a doll for a friend, eating at mac.

so overall, i saved zero. -.-
in fact, i over-spent. -.-

still, its a good start! :DD

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and i desperately need to be CLEAR AND CONCISE!!

i used to be very clear and concise. straight to the point and all.

dont know what happened, (maybe ive been ranting too much on my blog) but i dont seem to be able to be clear and concise recently D:

starting with my PI, mr pang was commenting that i like to write wordy stuff to make just one point. then in elit, i rant and rant and dont get to the point(i end up summarizing O_O). same goes for GP! and the GPP and EoM too!

somebody save me~~

i need to change!!

mid years are over

2009-07-02T21:46:00.005+08:00

.. still aint feeling happy though..

which is pretty good, so i'll be less inclined to let myself go, for a totally undeserved rest

only thing i did satisfactorily for was econs and elit..

plan for this year: focus on getting my econs and elit up to par~

and not losing (too much) touch with physics and maths!

obviously all's not well.

im so lost at maths now.. i think i have less maths knowledge now than at the end of last year @_@. which means the math department my head's been empty for 6 months.

physics, a little lost but way better than maths. its cause we're recovering alot of stuff already taught in year3&4, thank goodness.
but my physics results are gonna suck. everything was so familar and unfamilar at the same time-.-

i think i'll pass econs and elit, probably 30/100 for physics and 20/85 for maths.

then again, i was sure i'ld pass the other time, then i got 4 upon 50 or something.

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super junior! everyone viewed the video below??

take note of the person in white, the one w the most mistakes..

he's teukie teukie eeteuk!

cute, no? ^^

he's also called angelteuk, no idea why, except that he loves white and probably looks after the rest of the members very well :D

(he's the oldest, being 26/27(korean))

as everyone knows, i like sunny orange and purple/violet and now i'm including white too haha!

all his stuff are white! clothes are white, bed is white, bedsheets and blankets are white, keyboard is white, table is white, computer is white!

and white looks distinguised and smart :D

wonder how his clothes stay white though. all my white clothes turn yellowish or blueish after a while. handwashing doesnt help. does he dry clean them or something? or throw them away and buy new ones after it starts fading into another colour?

O_O

that lady who revealed SJ's dorm was right. he should marry a nurse. spotless house!

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feel like im drifting away from some people.. seeing them for what they truly seem to be?
i dont like having to lie again and again.. i dont know what you're doing, and i dont think you truly know as well..

its not that i dont trust you, but things can happen..
and when they do, i'ld be at fault too, because my actions might have made you a little happy, but brought you plenty of sorrow and regret too..

i dont want to be the person that did things out of thought for the friendship, not the friend..

please lets just leave this all behind, you're still too young..
we're all still too young to be involved in things like this

i still care alot for you. do you?

blog hiatus!

2009-06-24T20:37:00.003+08:00

exams are coming soon!

spent my holidays doing everything i liked! but not the stuff i need to do -.-

exams are in a few days.. the only studying ive done so far is SuperJunior 101 =_=

hwaiting! everyone :DD

after the exams are over, you may watch this:

urk: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUz-aF8xXdU

i repeat. AFTER EXAMS.

if not you'll get so hooked you'll kill me for sabotaging your exam preparations. im serious.

leeteuk!

HELLO WORLD!

2009-06-08T20:13:00.014+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

as written in a blog entry sometime ago, my computer's screen had some problem, and about 1/3 of the screen went white O_O

since i couldnt see the task bar and start button, i couldnt use it at all!

until i turned a little smarter and managed to use the computer, like 1 or 2 days before i sent it to the repair, by pulling UP the task bar! heh. :D

anyway, my dear lappie is back :D

the repair guy fixed it up.. and made me so embarrassed about my treatment of my laptopD:
before they take your laptop in, they inspect the computer for any defections already there, and make you sign a form acknowledging the defections, so that you wont sue them for mishandling your computer, causing the defections (when they were there already, in the first place)
so he spotted this:
- faded palm rest, scratches on computer, bottom 2 rubber stoppers missing, rubber on left mouse button missing, rusted speakers
quite a mouthful eh?

so now im gonna try my best to take good care of my good laptop :D
p.s a few mins after saying that, i made my keyboard sticky cause i tried to type while holding a pear in my hand -.-

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now after all that ranting..
Ive been really busy lately! im going out every single day. O_O
monday - RDA CIP!

we were supposed to be like side-walkers, and clean the stables, but in the end we couldnt go near the horses cause we didnt have the waiver form (to remove RDA from any liability)
but we were all quite excited, so we took pics like we were tourists in a foreign country lol!
ppl that day: siewhwee, siewlin, natasha, yingying, yanni, minee, jieen, and myself!

(omg i lost all the pics! T_T)
(remind me to retake next mon!!)

tuesday - 5P Class Outing!

merticulously organised by darling winnie :D

the people who had dinner and took the train home :D

i brought 60 fishballs! thinking that there would be 25 people.. in the end got 15 only..
but alot of ppl helped eat the fishballs, so i only threw away a little..

and that day i observed something.
fishballs expand ALOT! in the microwave!!
case in point:

before:

after:

expanded by more, actually. but by the time i ran out of the kitchen to get my phone and ran back in, the gigantic fishballs had already shrunk D:

heh. i couldnt think of a way to tar-pau my fishballs, so my mum suggested putting into the bread packets! so cute right? haha!

and then we cycled.. some people rollerbladed..

Jieen learnt how to cycle (w no training wheels) in 3 hrs! thats like super fast..
but now her legs have huge bruises and lotsa scratches..

and jonathan, the king of lateness, came dontknow how many hours late.

the funnest part was going home! gossiped all the way lol. i felt bad at times..

Wednesday - PW meeting.
nothing much.. sent my laptop for fixing, then lunched w siewlin. bought chicken rice. quite nice. looked at shoes too. in the end i bought another pair (you'll see later in the post)
ate alot that day. blew nearly 10dollars on lunch+other tidbits.
Thursday & Friday - NUS Physics Outreach Enrichment Camp

went with dearie Huiyuan and Liling!

1st day wasnt much fun, 2nd day was a blast! :DD

and we saw alot of RV seniors! (on hindsight, i shld have taken pictures of them D:)

the first one i spotted was zhanjiang! who is also the mystery ASL for rv scouts.
at first i recognised him by his red shirt lol. he wore the same shirt for the 40-Through the Ages campfire back on 18th april.
huiyuan and lilin participated in an activity under him, said he was v cute and nice and humourous, and best of all, biased towards them cause they his juniors LOL. haha xD

the other was a year2 physics student... he was pretty funny haha!
and he reminds me of myself!!
"i liked physics alot in rv too! but 是骗你的。。 no one tells you it involves so much maths. like F=ma. WAAAH that equation ah.."
more details can be found on HuiYuan's blog (click here)

-okay after reading huiyuan's tag i feel guilty about blogging so little about it, so here's a continuation-

the first day involved 3 lectures by diff lecturers/profs.
the first one was an absolute bore, the subject was Matter.
the second one was on cosmology! it was kinda understandable, but i was lost after the first few minutes.

cosmology~~

the third was was the same lecturer that came to rv to give the lecture on nano materials! and this time he added in more jokes than last time, and overall it was hilariously funny. made me very very interested in nano science! but i still like architecture better :DD

after that was lunch. and it showed some people had an absolute lack of manners/consideration.
there were students from sm2, and they sat closer to the exits. so when it was announced we could go for the lunch (it was a buffet. i think the school paid for us 3), we all went out the exits, and queued for the food. since there was like, 300+ people there, and 3 buffet tables, we had to queue.. unfortunately for huiyuan, liling and myself, by the time it was our turn at the table, there was no plate, no food left.

so we left the queue and joined the queue at another buffet table. AND YOU KNOW WHAT WE SAW?! some sm2 students queuing at the buffet table as well, WHILE HOLDING A PLATE ALREADY LADEN WITH FOOD. AND EATING FROM IT.

wah i was totally incredulous. i mean like.. wth?? you have at least 80 students,kids, lecturers, nus science faculty ppl hungry for food, and having to requeue cause the first table ran out of food, AND YOU'RE HAPPILY MUNCHING AWAY, DEVOIDING OTHER PEOPLE OF LUNCH CAUSE YOU WANT A SECOND HELPING.
and right infront of us too.

selfish, inconsiderate, illmannered people. pfft.
i came home and ranted to my mum about them. and my mum agrees that the latest wave of youngsters from that country all seem to be self-conceited, self-centered, self-everything.
people always say singaporeans are kiasu. but like, we're totally beaten in kiausu-ness by that country. lets call that country C. C for Country.
i always thought it was wonderful singaporeans are moving away from being selfish people to being more graceful, less narrowminded people like the swiss and the british. but this new wave of people are seriously threatening to destablise our devopment to being nice, wellmannered citizens. it's like sparking an arms race. people from that C are coming here and bringing all their bad mannerisms here. bah.
of course, it doesnt apply to all people from that C, i have lovely friends from the C who are nothing like that people i'm blasting here.

okay end of rant.

anyway, after that we split into 2 grps. i went with ppl from christchurch sec, and chungchenghigh(yishun). huiyuan and liling went w 2 boys from cch(yishun).

it was called a cartesian diver. involves 2 divers, a bottle of water. there were 10 tasks, some were hard to acheive, like keeping one diver in the middle while sinking the other. thought it was impossible, but one of science fac ppl managed to do it. woah. quite amazing :D

but we were given 2 hours to do it, and after the initial fun of the first 1/2 hour, it was absolute boredom. our grp's facillitator was a cute student we called 美女.

then the other grp came back, liling went home while huiyuan stayed w me! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

then we went home.

2nd day!
went around visiting the laboratories. very fun. wayy more fun than the previous day.
saw zhanjiang thrice.
then we had a quiz. the cch(yishun people) left during the prize giving. i think its pretty rude of them. how would they like it if they were the ones due to receive the prize, and the other schools just walked out like that? pfft.

anyway, certs were given out during the prize presentation, and chrischurchppl and us 3 got it. the cch(yishun) ppl didnt get it. serves them right. though i think the faculty's too nice and will probably mail it to their school.

us + chrischurch people!

haha!

After that i rushed down for the guides campfire! bought the 1.80 chicken rice at clementi along the way. VERY NICE!! the auntie gave so much rice till the packet couldnt close and ended up looking like a chinese dumpling haha.

the guides campfire was okay, was surprised to see brownies there.. and rv scouts was the only scouts troop lol! the whole thing was okay, the best dance was by the year3s!! very nice to watch. esp the tarzan and jane part. imaginary ropes and pulling haha. the energy was in the dance alright.

we all got high during community singing haha! was happy cause there was like, 13 guides there! 13 out of 19 is very not bad :D

yay guides can still be united =3

then we took pics and a myterious orb appeared in both photos. want to see more? ~~call this number~~ see my facebook pics.

Saturday!
i think i stayed at home.
Sunday!
i went out and bought by birthday present.

shall post on this week next time. involves my birthday ahah.

p/s
MY FIRST MEDAL!

hehheh. thanks to bayhuishan and the other super fast gryphon runner :D

2009-06-01T22:13:00.004+08:00

so sick of all these things, all these people. -people?-
i hate being surrounded by all you bitches.
conceited, superficial, pretense, so full of yourself. such a disgrace you say. fuck yourself.

so fed up. i want it all to end; or rather i want you to end.

put up.忍. i want to lash back and hurt.

mini update

2009-05-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

was going to update on the x-country!
what i got and what happened after w jellies.

but my computer's spoilt, the screen's bottom half is white..

so yeah ive got to send that for repair D:

i'll probably update after its fixed.

so it's gonna take a looooooooooong time..

random photo

2009-05-24T15:58:00.004+08:00

it was raining pretty heavily a few days back

the view from my window:

foggy~
reminds of genting highlands..

SUPER CUTE CHILDREN.

2009-05-24T13:54:00.005+08:00

you HAVE to watch this!

MUST! watch!!

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rh5rCy76TLE
(dont bother clicking high quality)

the kids are SOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!

especially yellowpants! greenpants is a good dancer haha

they're dancing Again&again and SorrySorry! so cute!

p.s it'll be cuter if youve already seen how the SorrySorry and Again&Again dances look like

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6B4WWwhuEN4&NR=1
SuperJunior - Sorry Sorry

url:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7m_w9gS-TM
2pm - Again&Again

watch these two first! then the little kids will be funnier haha